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Wednesday Apr 06, 2005

Apr 6, 2005
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My best friend (well, ex best friend) turns eighteen on Sunday and I'm thinking about buying her a card. Only problem is, I'm not sure whether to write in the card, "I love you...please don't ever leave me" or "Fuck you, I was always there and you never cared or knew I was alive."

I shouldn't get so close to people. I'm not thinking about her as much, or crying over her anymore. It's grown into acceptance. She'll be self centered for many years to come, that was how she was raised. I don't like it when people compare me to her. One of my friends said "she should be lucky - you should be the fucked up one from all you went through. She got everything she wanted, and still complained." But, that is my problem. I fall for people too quickly, I am loyal and I am someone who is always there. When people don't do the same for me, I can't unglue myself.

I feel attached (there is a better word, "in love"? Maybe.) to one person in particular right now, but everything tells me it will be alright, I can depend on him to take care of me, and I can take care of him as well. I'm so excited about being with him this summer, I feel like I'm going to burst from my skin from the excitement.
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tinplatedhero:
Obviously, you did get the other comment. wink The loop is a pretty cool kick for people watching. Over the summer, I need to get inspiration for a couple of short stories I'm going to write, maybe I'll just go up there and hang out with a notebook. wink

Getting to the loop easily depends on what time you're coming from. You could also try taking 64/40 to Hanley or Skinker, then one of those two up to Delmar. However, if you're coming during anything resembling rush hour, that might take longer than 270, but it might be a toss up.
Apr 6, 2005
jessikah:
Of course I don't mind if you add me.
It was a small gathering, a few friends met me up there and a guy from SG that saw the post came too. It was a nice time though I enjoyed it. Have a few photos that I'll post in my folders.
There's a few goth/industrial gatherings coming up I'll post them in the stl group

<3
-G
Apr 6, 2005

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