techno_ballerina

I'm trying to convince myself I'm not having a manic episode at the moment. It took me over an hour to actually wake up, but once I was in touch with the world, I kind of got into this euphoric state where everything seemed...okay. I took the Adderall on an empty stomach (I'm going out for a cheeseburger later) and I'm having these wild hand tremors. I've been cleaning my room and throwing things away without really thinking...and then retrieving them from the trash because I remember that I want to keep them. I'm bouncy, but this happiness feels kind of unnatural and I don't like it. I'm praying I don't go under at work tonight. That's how it always begins. My period is officially over, and I have these manic episodes all the time after I've stopped. It's so weird. Mainly it's restlessness. I need to write or go running or something. I'm home alone and I'm going insane. I was told the Lamictal wouldn't really be in my blood stream until a month. It's only been a week and I feel stable, but it's all artificial. Has anyone else been on it/have heard things about it? It's supposed to be fairly new, but I trust my doctor, I'd still like some insight.