techno_ballerina

i am just a boy working in a record store, yes i moved to san francisco to see what i could be. i am a loser geek, crazy with an evil streak. yes, i do believe there is a violent thing inside of me...

J called me, told me he wanted to patch things up between us. I told him I would always be his friend but...we cannot go back to where we were. Too many lies, too much abuse. I mean...he never did anything wrong, I just don't feel we could ever repair things between us.

I hate men. I've been physically abused by two and emotionally abused by one...that makes two shitty relationships (because my dad does NOT count, lol). There's only a few men I actually have respect for in real life...and very few online because I cannot log onto livejournal or suicidegirls (yes, you heard me) without having some dimwit user with the name like "horny_man69") asking for nudes. uugh. some...some do not really get it, and its so frusterating.

That is my rant for the day. I'm on my period and horny as fuck and cramping and I have migraines andandand...beh. I want to talk with him tonight, after I take a nice, hot bath and finish homework.

Night, all.