techno_ballerina

"i hate when my medicine wears off. i don't even hear words coming out of people, all i hear is 'blah, blah, blah, blah.' "

- casey (my little sister who rocks)

i seriously want to do something for halloween...i'm putting together my costume (going as a dead emo kid) i don't know, i've calls out to a few friends, meh. waiting sucks.

all my...
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It's been raining all day. I feel like taking a hot bath with lavender-scented bubbles and lit candles strewn about. Then wrapping myself up in my covers and falling asleep warm and clean, dreaming about sunny places far from here.

It's the perfect night to make love. Nice, fast sex that's in rhythm with the rain plinking on the window. But instead...I'll probably end up...
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Ok, I officially hate this website.

I should be working on my paper that I haven't even started, due tomorrow, but nooooo, I MUST be distracted by the most gorgeous, pierced tattooed ladies on the Internet. DAMN YOU PEOPLE AND YOUR EVIL TRICKS! Always fucking with my head.

*takes a deep breath and pops some Adderall*

I think I feel a little better now.

I've a question -

In the "news" section, under "advice," are members allowed to respond with their own thoughts, or is it just SGs? Someone posted something I felt strongly about and when I looked for a link or something to comment, it didn't show, just like everything else. Only SGs are allowed to respond?

Members, does it do this for you too?

My life will change today.

I can feel it.

The average cutter grows out of their habits around the age of 18-19, or towards the beginning of college. Victims of rape and sexual abuse generally don't "outgrow" self harm until their mid thirties or until they have given birth to children.

Interesting statistic...I can see how having children could make a woman give up cutting...I mean, you don't want little children asking "mommy, what...
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RIP, Matthew Shepard.
You beautiful, beautiful boy.

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I'm getting away. For awhile.
Those who don't know, don't ask.

You probably wouldn't understand.

ok, so...everyone on this site hates me now. super. not like it really matters, anyway.

a wishlist of sorts:
a. a girl with soft, ivory skin to touch and taste.
b. scented oils and pillar candles all over my room.
c. coat-hanger wings so i can fly to the moon (again)
d. money to afford textbooks that aren't so beat up.
e. long distance lust and kisses, come true.
f. bath salts and silk robes against my goose-bumped skin.
g....
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conversation with my father this morning as the coffee was brewing and before i was off to work.

him: "you know, you saved my life yesterday morning."

me: "i did?"

him: "yeah. this truck nearly slammed into me yesterday and i barely had a second to slam on the brakes. and i realized...had you not stopped me this morning before i went out the door...
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Have you ever been so tired that you all of a sudden became so delerious that those around you questioned your existence? That was me tonight. I called one of those body massagers a vibrator in front of a customer and burst out giggling while the old woman looked away in horror, and nearly knocked down a display of sleep aids (the irony?). I haven't...
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