tearitdown

I've realised that despite my bravado and apparent self confidence that I've built up over the last few months that I'm really quite a scared person, shy and anxious.

I've been wearing a mask, I need to take it off. I need to be more like the me I used to be. I'm definately not at a point where I can look to a relationship in the sense that it may really go somewhere. I think I just thought I really needed someone to hold and to hold me.

Basically I'm lonely for someone to share my bed with after four years of having someone. My needs are not sexual, just comfort and love I think. I have been drinking, which isn't good as I have to navigate the contriflow system tomorrow on my bike. Anyway, no doubt everything will look better in the morning.