hello to everyone
time for an update....the last one is older than a week
the reason for that is, that the last days werent the finest.
I have some sort of dear grief (I hope this is the correct word for liebeskummer)...and waaaah, I hate that (who not?)....so I was not really motivated to write a new entry.
the love grief isnt away right now, but Im able to write or talk about it.
Always during or after a dear grief (strange word), I feel the need to change myself. another hair colour, new clothes, new stuff for my flat.....things like that. do anybody of you know this need of changing something??
Im really lucky and proud about about my friends, which are always helping me and are here for me. everybody should have friends like them.
oh and university....Im not motivated to learn because of my thoughts, which are turning in circles and spirals.....oh I hate my way to think. Im not able to stop thinking about things, before I have dissected everything in several parts....and also then Im not able to understand the facts.....ah LOVE GRIEF
I always want to hide under my bed with thousands of cushions and listening to sad music which deals with the big world pain 
, until it will be over....but Im not able to do that.
how do you handle stuff like that?
soooo....is everybody fine?
wishing you a nice day and leave here a
for you all
time for an update....the last one is older than a week
the reason for that is, that the last days werent the finest.
I have some sort of dear grief (I hope this is the correct word for liebeskummer)...and waaaah, I hate that (who not?)
....so I was not really motivated to write a new entry.
the love grief isnt away right now, but Im able to write or talk about it.
Always during or after a dear grief (strange word), I feel the need to change myself. another hair colour, new clothes, new stuff for my flat.....things like that. do anybody of you know this need of changing something??
Im really lucky and proud about about my friends, which are always helping me and are here for me. everybody should have friends like them.
oh and university....Im not motivated to learn because of my thoughts, which are turning in circles and spirals.....oh I hate my way to think. Im not able to stop thinking about things, before I have dissected everything in several parts....and also then Im not able to understand the facts.....ah LOVE GRIEF
I always want to hide under my bed with thousands of cushions and listening to sad music which deals with the big world pain , until it will be over....but Im not able to do that.
how do you handle stuff like that?
soooo....is everybody fine?
wishing you a nice day and leave here a
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darklis:
Thanks, girl! What an exciting day it was. You need to be an SG and SOON! 
_nancy_boy_:
hey you....I hope things are better.....