tear_garden

"And now, the end is near; and so I face the final curtain..."

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah..."

Okay... so I DON'T remember the rest of the lyrics to this song... sorry!

I lame.

Me know.

...

Lots and lots and fucking LOTS of intense life change of late...

Too much and some too personal to address in this venue...

I am not particularily talkative right now... more contemplative and thoughtful.

Yes.

I am.

It's a good thing. I need that right now.

I move to Vancouver in March. I am excited. Tiamat will become my new hanging partner, whether she likes it or not- and I will replace my legs with one big motorcycle for easier mobility to and fro.

...

Okay so I lie.

Tiamat hates me. Heh...



This is my final post, I think. If it is... I thank anyone reading this for being alive. I thank you moreso if you really live. I kiss you with fervour if you smile all the while.

I am getting there.

To the smile.

A big one.

I think I'm finding myself... 24 years after the fact- but it comes at the right time and I'm blessed for it.

I thank you for words to me, written or otherwise and leave you with this:

A DREAM WITHIN A DREAM
by Edgar Allan Poe

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weepwhile I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

THE END