Avoiding homework. A very, very large amount of homework, actually. But I'm very good at ignoring responsibility, hoo yes.
Drinking some iced tea (too sweetened... alas) and thinking about things. My life has been a combination of horrendous, and more horrendous, and full of hope for the future.
Of import:
- My boyfriend is a sociopath, or at least has very prominent tendencies.
Oh dear.
We're going to talk about it over new years, which we will be spending together, cozy in new york, possibly in the city. I've never been attracted to the Times Square hype, but we may go find some parties or something on the night of. We are working things out, despite his being confused and his hurting me in a quite unimaginable way. The other girl is out of the picture. Finally. According to him (and all of his friends, I've done my research) he never cared about her, but kept her around because he "couldn't hurt her". And he told her so, and she is on the warpath. Specifically, my warpath. She is extremely borderline, and I have to say I'm a little worried, but hopefully she'll be able to keep it together until she will be gone from his school next semester.
That's really as much detail as I want to go into about this situation at the moment. It's been very painful, I still haven't really dealt with it. But one step at a time.
2. My father has an atrial fibrulation. Which could reoccur, though he is fine at the moment, despite his bronchitis. I'm trying not to think too much about this one either, if for no other reason than I have no control over it.
3. My mother may finally be detaching herself from my family. I cannot decide whether I'm hurt or relieved that the tension will finally be past.
4. It's finals. Fuck.
5. I may finall be getting another voice teacher, and she's the best in the area, according to the people at this school. Awesome.
6. I am so excited to see my friends over Christmas break. No definitive plans yet, except that I think the exboyfriend and I will be having lunch. Something neutral. I no longer view him as a threat to my happiness, which is a good sign that I can start talking to him again without the threat of a nervous breakdown.
7. I NEVER HAVE TO GO TO ANOTHER LINGUISTIC ANTHROPOLOGY CLASS EVER AGAIN. I actually found it really interesting, but my professor was horrible, and I learned nothing except what I ended up teaching myself. Luck of the draw, I suppose.
8. I got into an acting class for next semester. An hour and a half, three days a week, at nine o'clock in the morning. Fannnntastic. No, really, I love acting class. I wonder how long that's going to last, though, considering I loathe mornings unless I've consumed massive amounts of coffee. Preferably along with a flaky, warm croissant. (Pronouned kwa-soh. As near as I can get French pronunciation into english letters. Americanization of foreign words irks me anyway, but that's one of the biggies. Don't even get me talking about how people butcher gnocchi.)
9. I haven't been eating regularly or well. it's something about winter, I think, which is strange, because theoretically, my body needs to spend more energy keeping itself warm... so I should be hungrier, right? Well, not to say that the food on this campus is particularly good for you anyway, but I try.
10. I feel like I should have a 10, for aesthetic purposes.
Despte the bad things, I think my life as a whole is nearing an upswing. It's definitely past due, but I can feel it starting.
I want it.
Some of the options:
1. Get really mad
2. Strike quickly
3. Stealth attack
4. Unleash fury
5. Turn invisible
6. Hypnotize someone
7. Destroy enemy
*covet*
It's December 8th! How did that happen?! I have to buy christmas presents!
Drinking some iced tea (too sweetened... alas) and thinking about things. My life has been a combination of horrendous, and more horrendous, and full of hope for the future.
Of import:
- My boyfriend is a sociopath, or at least has very prominent tendencies.
Oh dear.
We're going to talk about it over new years, which we will be spending together, cozy in new york, possibly in the city. I've never been attracted to the Times Square hype, but we may go find some parties or something on the night of. We are working things out, despite his being confused and his hurting me in a quite unimaginable way. The other girl is out of the picture. Finally. According to him (and all of his friends, I've done my research) he never cared about her, but kept her around because he "couldn't hurt her". And he told her so, and she is on the warpath. Specifically, my warpath. She is extremely borderline, and I have to say I'm a little worried, but hopefully she'll be able to keep it together until she will be gone from his school next semester.
That's really as much detail as I want to go into about this situation at the moment. It's been very painful, I still haven't really dealt with it. But one step at a time.
2. My father has an atrial fibrulation. Which could reoccur, though he is fine at the moment, despite his bronchitis. I'm trying not to think too much about this one either, if for no other reason than I have no control over it.
3. My mother may finally be detaching herself from my family. I cannot decide whether I'm hurt or relieved that the tension will finally be past.
4. It's finals. Fuck.
5. I may finall be getting another voice teacher, and she's the best in the area, according to the people at this school. Awesome.
6. I am so excited to see my friends over Christmas break. No definitive plans yet, except that I think the exboyfriend and I will be having lunch. Something neutral. I no longer view him as a threat to my happiness, which is a good sign that I can start talking to him again without the threat of a nervous breakdown.
7. I NEVER HAVE TO GO TO ANOTHER LINGUISTIC ANTHROPOLOGY CLASS EVER AGAIN. I actually found it really interesting, but my professor was horrible, and I learned nothing except what I ended up teaching myself. Luck of the draw, I suppose.
8. I got into an acting class for next semester. An hour and a half, three days a week, at nine o'clock in the morning. Fannnntastic. No, really, I love acting class. I wonder how long that's going to last, though, considering I loathe mornings unless I've consumed massive amounts of coffee. Preferably along with a flaky, warm croissant. (Pronouned kwa-soh. As near as I can get French pronunciation into english letters. Americanization of foreign words irks me anyway, but that's one of the biggies. Don't even get me talking about how people butcher gnocchi.)
9. I haven't been eating regularly or well. it's something about winter, I think, which is strange, because theoretically, my body needs to spend more energy keeping itself warm... so I should be hungrier, right? Well, not to say that the food on this campus is particularly good for you anyway, but I try.
10. I feel like I should have a 10, for aesthetic purposes.
Despte the bad things, I think my life as a whole is nearing an upswing. It's definitely past due, but I can feel it starting.
I want it.
Some of the options:
1. Get really mad
2. Strike quickly
3. Stealth attack
4. Unleash fury
5. Turn invisible
6. Hypnotize someone
7. Destroy enemy
*covet*
It's December 8th! How did that happen?! I have to buy christmas presents!