teamjamanda

i think i have decided to pursue modeling again. to anyone that knows me, that may sound totally obscure, but it's true.

several times in high school, plus once when i was 18 and once when i was 19, talent agents expressed interest in having me model for them. every single time, i declined. and now that i look back, that was really fucking stupid.

my reasons were so self-righteous; i didnt want to be an "object", i wanted to be "known for more than my face" and i had a misconception that models were just pretty faces with no substance. i know now that is totally untrue, and if i had taken even one of their interests to heart, i could be making money now.

or maybe not. but at least i would have KNOWN.

i've recently been looking at some of the photographers on this site and it truly is a shame none of them live by me, because i'd love to have some of them take some pictures of me. maybe give some pointers. to tell you the truth ive thought about doing SG but i dont really think it is for me, as much as i love it. i know it can be a jump point for some girls. but as i said, i dont think it'd be the first step for me personally.

i also have a few really really fun ideas that i'd like to turn into photos.

maybe it's the fact hat ive been getting more excercise and things (even though i havent been as disciplined as i'd like) that is boosting my self confidence. and truthfully, i think all my former reasons for not taking those talent agents up were just a smokescreen for bad self esteem.

anyone interested in building their portfolio?