tc_nikon

Not a good day for me emotionally. I am getting better each day physically and dealing with the pain so much better. Something told me not to answer the phone but I did anyway. On the other end was an ex co worker. I was so much in love with her but I never did anything about it because of my No dating coworkers rule. She fixed me up with her cousin back in the day (she was a psycho muffin that made me run for cover). So every time we talk she brings up her crazy ass cousin and how I made the mistake of going out with her.Now the original girl is married and is a mother. She heard about my surgery and wanted to know how I was doing (as a friend). Talking to her was a mistake because now all I have been thinking about is her. Damn... What ifs are running through my mind. I dont need this shit right now. I need to concentrate on getting better physically and getting myself better. Not worrying about someone that got away. FML !!