taylorthetiger

So, the depressed stuff is gone. But it's almost like nothing replaced it - I just feel apathetic. Like I'm a placeholder going through the motions of being a human but not really feeling any of it. I do know I still can feel things - I have all these feelings waiting to be expressed towards a person or a child or an animal or a trip, but I have nothing to apply them to right now. Like, I have ideas... my mind is overflowing with ideas and images and I wish I had a camera and enough time to write because I'm just all abuzz with hypotheticals. But my real life is so far away from that, and I'm so lonely and bored and unmotivated, that I just feel like I'm floating through all this, kind of insubstantial.

I kind of enjoy the dissociation, actually.
It lets me dress like another person, for one.

Although blowing off all my classes today was probably a dumb move.