Today was My friend Jen's annual summer rib cook off. It was so fun and delicious! I am still a lil' bit drunk. It was a pot luck and as it would turn out everyone brought beer....we had Ribs and beer and more beer and more ribs. I even brought beer which I don't usually do, but I did bring chips as well....
Yep yep- 2 things in life that inspire me to blog.
BBQ-ed meat and booze!
Yeay for summer time!
Yep yep- 2 things in life that inspire me to blog.
BBQ-ed meat and booze!
Yeay for summer time!
irelandvixen:
wow I didnt Know you were back on SG thats kick ass! Thank you so much for all your kind words. I miss him more than anything in this world. I wish I could have him back. Having this baby has saved me honestly, I am focused on her and am gonna love her with all I have. I have waited my whole life to be a mom. I really started to think it would never happen and he gave me that gift. I wish he was here to enjoy it with me but I know hes watching over us wishing he was here. I do still have bad days and I know thats expected but i do still think about the happy times and look forward to this baby girl! I have joined a suvivor of suicide support group. Its helped a little, its nice to have people who truely understand. ITs hard to hear them hurt too but they do feel like I do. Im trying so hard to not blame myself I know I didnt do anything wrong but i do try to imagine if I had done some things differently if they would have made a difference and I know everyone says they wont but we will never know. He would have been a great father, he was a good fiancee it wasnt always good but he was really working on himself cause he wanted so badly to make me proud of him, I just wished he realized I was! Its hard for me to not cry alot especially when i hear a song that reminds me of him or if i just miss him next to me or kissing me or telling me I love you momma! I miss those things the most! But I am trying to get through all this its never gonna go away or heal but I will be able to deal with it! She will know how much he loved her! Thank you again for all you have said and been there. Im gonna send in 2 sets here soon. One he really wanted me to send in he took it at the river, i Liked it but it was last min so i didnt have make up on lol but he loved it and i hope maybe it will be good enough. he did such an amazing job on my snow set! He wass so proud of it I was proud of him he did a great job. One of the things I loved about him was how much he liked and wanted to be involved in my modeling. He use to brag about it all the time! LOL! he was great! Talk to you soon! love-ireland