betrayal...
how do you learn from it?
never try again?
never trust again?
I've tried that. It's lonely. It's so hard to walk around and participate in life and not let injuries become wounds become scars. I like to rip the scab off before it heals. That tends to encourage scarring... note to self, pick up some emotional disinfectant...
funny how you put alcohol on physical wounds and it works so well to numb emotional pain too... of course, I can think of a few things that work even better than liquor for pain...
i don't have that option anymore. I exceeded the manufacturer's recommendations for escapist solutions... now I have to learn from my experiences. It's kind of a shock to the system. Emotional maturity doesn't really happen if you don't walk through the experience with some lucidity..
aghh! the full spectrum, anger, fear, guilt, suspicion, jealousy, attraction, lust... my emotions are AWAKE today!
how do you learn from it?
never try again?
never trust again?
I've tried that. It's lonely. It's so hard to walk around and participate in life and not let injuries become wounds become scars. I like to rip the scab off before it heals. That tends to encourage scarring... note to self, pick up some emotional disinfectant...
funny how you put alcohol on physical wounds and it works so well to numb emotional pain too... of course, I can think of a few things that work even better than liquor for pain...
i don't have that option anymore. I exceeded the manufacturer's recommendations for escapist solutions... now I have to learn from my experiences. It's kind of a shock to the system. Emotional maturity doesn't really happen if you don't walk through the experience with some lucidity..
aghh! the full spectrum, anger, fear, guilt, suspicion, jealousy, attraction, lust... my emotions are AWAKE today!