Lately I have had nothing to say. So I am gonna dig deep and say something anyway.
If you are unlucky in love, are you definitely lucky at cards? Cuz if so, I should head to Vegas. I keep getting ridiculous crushes on guys who are my friends and then torturing myself with imagined romantic scenes where they confess their secret attraction for me and we live happily ever after. Here's a verbal photo montage: we meet, we become friends, we eat ice cream and laugh in the sun, we run through the rain giggling, we hike, we bike, we eat pizza and watch movies, he looks into my eyes and tells me he loves me, we get engaged, marry romantically, buy a house, have kids and enjoy an excellent retirement surrounded by grandchildren. Here's what actually happens. He tells me he does not like me that way. Now, let me ask you, if you don't like me, why did you make me dinner for the last three nights in a row? Why do you flirt and tell me I am beautiful? Are you just feeding off my crush on you.
I have learned an important lesson about guys. If they don't like me when they first meet me, they never will. I have to date the guys that want to date me. I can't make them like me. Lesson learned. More later.
T
If you are unlucky in love, are you definitely lucky at cards? Cuz if so, I should head to Vegas. I keep getting ridiculous crushes on guys who are my friends and then torturing myself with imagined romantic scenes where they confess their secret attraction for me and we live happily ever after. Here's a verbal photo montage: we meet, we become friends, we eat ice cream and laugh in the sun, we run through the rain giggling, we hike, we bike, we eat pizza and watch movies, he looks into my eyes and tells me he loves me, we get engaged, marry romantically, buy a house, have kids and enjoy an excellent retirement surrounded by grandchildren. Here's what actually happens. He tells me he does not like me that way. Now, let me ask you, if you don't like me, why did you make me dinner for the last three nights in a row? Why do you flirt and tell me I am beautiful? Are you just feeding off my crush on you.
I have learned an important lesson about guys. If they don't like me when they first meet me, they never will. I have to date the guys that want to date me. I can't make them like me. Lesson learned. More later.
T
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taurus:
thanks Shard. Yeah, I find my romantic fantasies amusing and don't take them too seriously. I think I have been trying to "pick" someone, when in reality, falling in love is the most effortless and accidental thing in the world. I don't feel incomplete and mostly I am not really lonely. I just need to keep living my life and being honest and I think everything will fall into place. There is a plan, I am sure. I just don't know what it is 
autumnfade:
just my 2 cents, guys must be crazy to walk away from you-take care