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What do you do when everything around you becomes nothing more than a joke at the expense of your very being? Where do you go when the ones who once told you they loved you are too afraid to be there with you, for you and next to you? When does enough, truly become enough? There are so many questions without any answers and so many things that I wish I had the power to change. I just sit here, in tears, alone, and cold. I sit here wondering why things got to this point, how they got so bad, and why I never had the ability to alter them. They say everything happens for a reason and no matter what, good or bad, there is a purpose. This may be true, but it doesnt mean I have to like it and it sure as shit doesnt mean I have to get used to it. I wish things were different, but I now realize everything is out of my hands.

Thank you for being there, thank you for caring; I have finally learned the biggest lesson in life. Sometimes the people you want to be with are too afraid to be with you in return ... and you just have to deal with the fact in the end, its only yourself, by yourself and for yourself.