tattooeddad

7/27/06
So it is 4:45 am and I can't sleep. The pain is so fucking insane right now I feel like clawing my own eyes out. I am supposed to leave for a 4 day jaunt to Reno in a few hours to spend time with my best friend, Angel , and I feel like death. I have been sick since Ozzfest almost a month ago and seem to be getting gradually worse instead of improving. I keep fearing I am going to end up back in the hospital for an extended stay again like last year, that some aspect of my body is in shut down mode and i"m just not smart enough to pick up on it. I have allowed ALL the problems we have - financial, emotional, etc., to weigh me down and I feel like I'm trapped under a rock I can't crawl out from under... I have cut back on my booze. I havent touched a drop in 2 weeks. I miss my Jager....I haven't smoked pot in 2 days, ergo the intense pain.....I wish a rich billionaire would just take pity on us and help........