4/4/06
"......Early morning, April 4. Shot rings out in a Memphis sky...."
Yet another great song I was thinking of this morning.
3 guesses who just spent 45 minutes in the bathroom praying to Buddha?
The new LACUNA COIL CD IS OUT TODAY!!!!! (I tucked away the $9 to buy it)....I am however going to have to sell DVD's to Tower records today to make some dough. With what I'm taking I should fetch $150-$200. Sadly, I 'll have to part with "The L Word" 1&2 but I can always buy them again, right? Just need to have a little extra to cover the B-day stuff for Logan this weekend and get my cell phone turned back on ASAP. I so suck at managing money. I fully admit it. I think it's because i was denied so much as a child that I just can't help spoiling the shit out of my kids and wifey on a daily basis. No excuses, just how it is.....
Well, I hear a hot shower calling my name.
On a more serious note, I hesitated to say anything about this but I went to bed last night just absolutely freaking out. My best friend, Angel who has been my friend for 21 years and whom I adore told me that in addition to the biopsy that she was already going to have on her ovaries due to some tests that were bad NOW has to have a biopsy on her thyroid as well because she has what is called a "gloiter" and has developed nodules. One the phone she tried to act ok, but guys, I've known her since I was 14, I know when she's scared and it destroyed me. As soon as I got off the phone with her I burst into tears and almost threw up. The idea of anything happening to her just makes me sick beyond belief. Kris tried to comfort me as best as she could, but she knows the bond that Angel and I have with one another and she has NEVER tried to interfere. In fact Kris and Angel have grown just as close. Truth is, I'm planning on asking her to be the new baby's Godmother and if it's a girl we are going to name the baby Sarah Angel. She is my closest friend in the whole world and I'm scared shitless. I know I'm a worry wort, but in my life good news is always peppered with bad news. I already know that my Uncle is going to succomb to cancer at anytime. Like I said, the idea of losing my best friend is unthinkable. She has no "real" family and we are all that she has. Her 2 boys are my nephews and I love those kids as if they were my own flesh and blood.
I know that SG is not exactly a haven for "religous" types or anything, but whatever path you follow please send happy thoughts, good karma, etc. her way please. If ever there were someone who deserved a long happy life it's my Angel baby. Sorry to go all DEBBIE DOWNER on everyone, but these journals are about honesty and writng the things that maybe I want to say out loud and can't, at least for me. This thing is my daily catharsis.
Hope everyone has a great day.
Everybody go wish xandsunshine a very Happy Birthday today. She should be a SG very soon! (fingers crossed)
(edit update - Tower gave me $67 lousy fuckin' dollars!)
"......Early morning, April 4. Shot rings out in a Memphis sky...."
Yet another great song I was thinking of this morning.
3 guesses who just spent 45 minutes in the bathroom praying to Buddha?
The new LACUNA COIL CD IS OUT TODAY!!!!! (I tucked away the $9 to buy it)....I am however going to have to sell DVD's to Tower records today to make some dough. With what I'm taking I should fetch $150-$200. Sadly, I 'll have to part with "The L Word" 1&2 but I can always buy them again, right? Just need to have a little extra to cover the B-day stuff for Logan this weekend and get my cell phone turned back on ASAP. I so suck at managing money. I fully admit it. I think it's because i was denied so much as a child that I just can't help spoiling the shit out of my kids and wifey on a daily basis. No excuses, just how it is.....
Well, I hear a hot shower calling my name.
On a more serious note, I hesitated to say anything about this but I went to bed last night just absolutely freaking out. My best friend, Angel who has been my friend for 21 years and whom I adore told me that in addition to the biopsy that she was already going to have on her ovaries due to some tests that were bad NOW has to have a biopsy on her thyroid as well because she has what is called a "gloiter" and has developed nodules. One the phone she tried to act ok, but guys, I've known her since I was 14, I know when she's scared and it destroyed me. As soon as I got off the phone with her I burst into tears and almost threw up. The idea of anything happening to her just makes me sick beyond belief. Kris tried to comfort me as best as she could, but she knows the bond that Angel and I have with one another and she has NEVER tried to interfere. In fact Kris and Angel have grown just as close. Truth is, I'm planning on asking her to be the new baby's Godmother and if it's a girl we are going to name the baby Sarah Angel. She is my closest friend in the whole world and I'm scared shitless. I know I'm a worry wort, but in my life good news is always peppered with bad news. I already know that my Uncle is going to succomb to cancer at anytime. Like I said, the idea of losing my best friend is unthinkable. She has no "real" family and we are all that she has. Her 2 boys are my nephews and I love those kids as if they were my own flesh and blood.
I know that SG is not exactly a haven for "religous" types or anything, but whatever path you follow please send happy thoughts, good karma, etc. her way please. If ever there were someone who deserved a long happy life it's my Angel baby. Sorry to go all DEBBIE DOWNER on everyone, but these journals are about honesty and writng the things that maybe I want to say out loud and can't, at least for me. This thing is my daily catharsis.
Hope everyone has a great day.
Everybody go wish xandsunshine a very Happy Birthday today. She should be a SG very soon! (fingers crossed)
(edit update - Tower gave me $67 lousy fuckin' dollars!)
VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
snakelover:
that's terrible news for you to hear .here's to wishing you get really great news from her soon!
zoomusikgrl:
aw, that's terrible about your friend. i know what it's like to lose someone you're that close to, and it absolutely blows. wouldn't wish it on anyone. i'll totally send some love your way! 