tattooeddad

3/27/06
So today is the day that we have to take LOGAN to SanFrancisco to see the Pedriatric Neurologist to go over the results of the EEG he had last week. I know Kris barely slept at all last night cuz she went out to the living room and watched TV, but I am so worried that it's going to be bad news. I know I should be positive and all, but I'm freaked out and so nauseous right now that the docs are going to drop another bombshell on us that I'm doing it to myself....I just want the kids to be ok. It's bad enough that they already have the diabetes, that's enough for them to deal with. Anything on top of that I feel is just excessive. I don't know, I think I should just be grateful that I even have 2 beautiful kids and be grateful that another one is on the way, but my worst fear in life is something bad happening to my kids. If I dwell on it too long, I actually start crying or get so sick I throw up.....(apologies to anyone that's not INTO kids, but it's my fucking journal, ok?).
Let's just hope for the best today. Won't be home till much later today as it's 160 miles round trip, so I will try talking with some of you like I normally do once we're home tonight....
Think happy thoughts.........