3/1/06
March 1st! man where is the time going to...Thank you Adelaide for "THE L WORD"!!!! I think I have discovered one of new all time fave TV shows!! I survived the KORN show last night. got home about 2am and have had 1-2 hours of sleep. I will probably nap most of today if my son will allow me the peace and quiet (more likely than not he will continue to pester me to help him beat his level on Super Mario Bros. I created a monster) to get some rest. Just want to say a big thanks to all of my new found "friends" on here. One of you mentioned in your own blog how you suffer from self-esteem issues and image issues. I do too and just the kindness and warmth that has been extended to me has been overwhelming (here's where I start to go all maudlin now).
The pain/illness has been taking its toll on me not just physically but mentally as well. I even fucked up my sobriety in the last couple of weeks and started drinking again to deal with it, though I know that it is only a temporary fix I find myself just indulging my wants/needs to the point of self-destruction. I'm not going to pull a Sylvia Plath or anything, but some days just really fucking suck for me, period! Nice to know that I can always log on here and get a msg from Mike, Celestina, Rya, Sass, Adelaide, et al that cheers me up just when I need it. All of you mean the world to me, sincerely and from the deepest part of that black hole that used to be my beating heart, thank you. I have more pix to post today or tomorrow. some from Sat night and some from Korn show last night. Party on Wayne! Party On Garth! Sheeyah, as if!
March 1st! man where is the time going to...Thank you Adelaide for "THE L WORD"!!!! I think I have discovered one of new all time fave TV shows!! I survived the KORN show last night. got home about 2am and have had 1-2 hours of sleep. I will probably nap most of today if my son will allow me the peace and quiet (more likely than not he will continue to pester me to help him beat his level on Super Mario Bros. I created a monster) to get some rest. Just want to say a big thanks to all of my new found "friends" on here. One of you mentioned in your own blog how you suffer from self-esteem issues and image issues. I do too and just the kindness and warmth that has been extended to me has been overwhelming (here's where I start to go all maudlin now).
The pain/illness has been taking its toll on me not just physically but mentally as well. I even fucked up my sobriety in the last couple of weeks and started drinking again to deal with it, though I know that it is only a temporary fix I find myself just indulging my wants/needs to the point of self-destruction. I'm not going to pull a Sylvia Plath or anything, but some days just really fucking suck for me, period! Nice to know that I can always log on here and get a msg from Mike, Celestina, Rya, Sass, Adelaide, et al that cheers me up just when I need it. All of you mean the world to me, sincerely and from the deepest part of that black hole that used to be my beating heart, thank you. I have more pix to post today or tomorrow. some from Sat night and some from Korn show last night. Party on Wayne! Party On Garth! Sheeyah, as if!