1/30/06
so I pulled my butt out of bed this morning , went to Target and bought some Superman pajama pants. I had like 2-3 pair allready but the more the merrier...my back is itching so bad, yikes, and the pain in my legs and feet is unreal. Last night I woke up screaming it was so bad...I start Pain management on Wed. Hopefully they can do something because i am not going back on Morphine or any other painkillers, that shit almost killed me. I'd rather be ME unaltered mentally in excruciating pain then be pain free and not know who the hell I am...the docs say I shaved years off my life by continuing to work 2 years past when i should have stopped, now I have to wait for SSI for the 2nd time to see if they will approve permanent disability. What a pain in the ass this whole experience has been...i'd say at least I have my health , but ummm...right...
Thansk to friends, well wishers and the like who keep my spirits up and to the SG's who keep other things up (sorry, bad entendre I Know, but they are beautiful, my eyes still work, they ain't broke yet). more L8TR
so I pulled my butt out of bed this morning , went to Target and bought some Superman pajama pants. I had like 2-3 pair allready but the more the merrier...my back is itching so bad, yikes, and the pain in my legs and feet is unreal. Last night I woke up screaming it was so bad...I start Pain management on Wed. Hopefully they can do something because i am not going back on Morphine or any other painkillers, that shit almost killed me. I'd rather be ME unaltered mentally in excruciating pain then be pain free and not know who the hell I am...the docs say I shaved years off my life by continuing to work 2 years past when i should have stopped, now I have to wait for SSI for the 2nd time to see if they will approve permanent disability. What a pain in the ass this whole experience has been...i'd say at least I have my health , but ummm...right...
Thansk to friends, well wishers and the like who keep my spirits up and to the SG's who keep other things up (sorry, bad entendre I Know, but they are beautiful, my eyes still work, they ain't broke yet). more L8TR