tattooedaddy

When it comes to emotions, I'm pretty broken to say the least. As for crying... the last time I shed a tear was about the not-so ripe age of 9. That story is for a whole different blog. Today I went to a funeral for a very close friend who unfortunately lost his 6 week old son. It was by far one of the hardest things I have been through and I wish that upon no one even a sworn enemy. Seeing how strong him and his wife were today was. Heart breaking in itself, as they held their 6 week old daughter.... yes they had twins. I prayed to all the God's and deities of any religion that would listen to help me break through this emotional detachment I have... if only I could have cried.

Now mind you, this is not some macho act. I need to cry, I long to cry. I was so saddened by the event and to see my good friends go through such a tragedy, but still no tears. I just feel that when this dam, this wall breaks down. I will resort to a child of pure unmolested innocence and weep for days. I just hope that it comes sooner than later cause next to sex I hear its the ultimate release.