tattooed_dave

So, you may start to see a trend in my blogging the longer I am a member. This blog def gives me a place to vent about girls, and any advice you want to give is always welcomed. I've never had any problem getting women, and no, by no means to I lie or manipulate. And to some extent, this is where the problem lies. You see, I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve, and let everyone know what I feel, even if it is not what they want to hear. I was primarily raised by my mother and 3 older sisters, so it has been instilled in me that under no circumstances should I harm a women physically or mentally. However, due to my upbringing, I have a problem. I love women, and no I'm not saying I'm gay or anything, I'm saying that I fall in love with every women that I am intimate with. I know it sounds bad, but it bothers me. It causes me a lot of undue stress, especially when I know that it's going no where from the start. However, there is on instance that differs from this. There is a girl whom I have been friends with for several years now. We have never had sex, but I can say without a doubt, that she is the only girl I have been completely head over heals in love with. I have shared details of my life with her that no one else knows. I have never felt that comfortable with anyone in my life. And we have amazing chemistry together. We were out once, and the store clerk asked if we were newlyweds because of the way we acted together. But every time a semblance of an idea arises about us dating, she freaks out and it typically ends in a fight. She says that she doesn't want to ruin our friendship. She has even gone so far as to try and set me up with her friends so she'll have a valid excuse. But I refuse to do so. Now tell me, what better things than friendship and apparent chemistry to start a relationship on? Oh, and the icing on the cake. My job requires me to travel for long periods of time. So last night she texts me and we are chatting when she tells me that she is tired of being single and that she wants me to come home. I told her that I wouldn't be able to come home for at least another month and that we would talk about "us" when I got back. Then this evening, I get a message from her saying that she wasn't sure how what she said made me thing that she wanted to be in a relationship. And her reason for sending it to me was to confide in me as a friend, and it was the fact that she was drinking is why she didn't state that. So instead of instigating yet another fight, I just told her to forget about it and to stop confiding in me with things that could be mistaken. But what the fuck do I know? I do know that this blog is becoming entirely too long, so I'm not going to proof read it for errors and omissions. So you will have to forgive me, and if you have any thoughts on the matter please let me know.


-Dave