tattooduke

its been so hard latley..ive made some bad dicisions and i feel horriable for them. but i can take a turn now and straighten some things in my life. i mis ley so much. but i know that if she and i will be together again i have to be strong on my own. i have never felt the love i have for her with anyone else and i never will but i have to love myself and straighten my shit up. i become self distructive when i feel lost and its very selfish cause the people in my life that love me feel it most. its hard when the one person u love the most. is needing to be away from you. i see her in my mind and heart every breath i take. i just hope to have her in my arms again. its like half of me is missing.and maybe someday i will get that half back. i pray that happens every day.but i have to move forward in mylife for that to come back to me.

im writing this because i have to get this of my chest and im not bringing anyone else around me into the relasionship and love we have between us. ley i love you. i look in your eyes and i know i hurt you. i kills me everyday but i will be the person you feel in love with. i just have to work hard at it. cause that is the person i love to be.

this is my bday, but without you it feels like lonelyest day on earth for me i would walk the world to be in your arms. but i have to walkforward to be there again.. i know this