I spent all of yesterday playing darts. I played untill i could'nt even pull the darts out of the board to keep me from sitting and crying too much. Pilster is gone from bad bladder problems the vet needed to put him down.
he has been my only friend and was the only one who has genuinley come to visit me.
Its hard, and i cry he knew i was lonely every second i went to sit down he would jump up beside me to keep me company, If he was'nt around and i called him he would come and look at me for a few seconds then come sit on my lap or next to me. Where can i get another cat like that?
Its going to be hard i need a new cat to keep me company but i don't want another cat. I want pilster. he can't just be replaced. what choice do i have? My feelings are starting to get all mixed up and i don't know what to do. I already miss him too much. I prepared a poem be4 because i dreaded this happening its a poem about his death it adds a little comfort. No one on earth really knew him but me so im just going to keep it 4 us so he knows the same thing about me.
he has been my only friend and was the only one who has genuinley come to visit me.
Its hard, and i cry he knew i was lonely every second i went to sit down he would jump up beside me to keep me company, If he was'nt around and i called him he would come and look at me for a few seconds then come sit on my lap or next to me. Where can i get another cat like that?
Its going to be hard i need a new cat to keep me company but i don't want another cat. I want pilster. he can't just be replaced. what choice do i have? My feelings are starting to get all mixed up and i don't know what to do. I already miss him too much. I prepared a poem be4 because i dreaded this happening its a poem about his death it adds a little comfort. No one on earth really knew him but me so im just going to keep it 4 us so he knows the same thing about me.
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tattooacidjunky:
if things go well i might just stay there all summer but i dunno there is loza help there already and might do my inter provincal welding test and end up in alberta.
nihly:
i am challenging my inability to deal with situations where i feel uncertainty. I have resolved to face my "fears" and do some of these things I've been holding off of just because they make me uncomfotrable, because i might feel judged, look goofy, whatnot....they are not a big deal to anyone really, they are just a "big deal" to me, because i suffer from anxiety, and the root to anxiety is just an inabilty to deal with uncertainty. this is GAD therapy: face what you're afraid of.