My w/end was exhausting. I was already really tired because of the previous w/end, but Pete was really ill and so he hasn't been sleeping which means I haven't been sleeping. Bless him its not just man fl, he was actually sick this morning, it was ickky 
Sat was nice and relaxing, I slept (after Pete got up), watched tv, read my book and I helped Pete's mum decorate the xmas tree, we also bathed the dragon (he didn't like my pink duckies!) and then because he pooped in the bath and Pete hadn't finished cleaning I bundled him up in a towel like a baby and we had cuddles whilst watching the tv.
Sun was a day i was dreading, Bill (my father) and his family of wife, eldest child and triplets came down to see my nan. i made the effort to go for my sister, but EVERY time I see them I feel like a failure, they're all so chirpy, smart and pretty - everything i'm not and it sucks. Margo (the step mother) assumed she was going to be a grandmother to my children - umm i don't think so you stupid bint, if I have my way you won't get anywhere near my kids. My father isn't even getting asked to walk me down the aisle one of my mates is, why should he?? it's not like he's been part of my life all these years and maybe seeing me walking down the aisle with someone else will make him realise that he can't make assumptions about being part of my life.
He also said while we were at nans that he thought anyone who works in accounting was strange, my step sister looked at me and said I can't believe he said that, I shrugged, but OMG does he not realise what i do for a FUCKING LIVING and what I've spent the last 4 YEARS STUDYING????????????????
What a fucktard, I am so angry with him, what a MOTHERFUCKING kNOBJOCKEY, if it wasn't for my nan or my sister I wouldn't even bother seeing him, him and his family suck all my energy away.
Sat was nice and relaxing, I slept (after Pete got up), watched tv, read my book and I helped Pete's mum decorate the xmas tree, we also bathed the dragon (he didn't like my pink duckies!) and then because he pooped in the bath and Pete hadn't finished cleaning I bundled him up in a towel like a baby and we had cuddles whilst watching the tv.
Sun was a day i was dreading, Bill (my father) and his family of wife, eldest child and triplets came down to see my nan. i made the effort to go for my sister, but EVERY time I see them I feel like a failure, they're all so chirpy, smart and pretty - everything i'm not and it sucks. Margo (the step mother) assumed she was going to be a grandmother to my children - umm i don't think so you stupid bint, if I have my way you won't get anywhere near my kids. My father isn't even getting asked to walk me down the aisle one of my mates is, why should he?? it's not like he's been part of my life all these years and maybe seeing me walking down the aisle with someone else will make him realise that he can't make assumptions about being part of my life.
He also said while we were at nans that he thought anyone who works in accounting was strange, my step sister looked at me and said I can't believe he said that, I shrugged, but OMG does he not realise what i do for a FUCKING LIVING and what I've spent the last 4 YEARS STUDYING????????????????
What a fucktard, I am so angry with him, what a MOTHERFUCKING kNOBJOCKEY, if it wasn't for my nan or my sister I wouldn't even bother seeing him, him and his family suck all my energy away.
Happy Solstice, hang in there...