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tomorrow i'll be covered in blood... running around somewhere... probably in my undies for a horror film being shot out here in Austin.

Don't know what to expect, but I think it will be fun. I'm hoping I'll get to be the gal who lives thru the film and ends up slaughtering the bad guy (I could afford to take out some aggression, even if it's done "fake" like) lol...

SO yeah.... I'm excited about that...

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Vermelho just informed me that the set we did is almost finished. I will (hopefully) see it early next week and I am even MORE excited about that! I just hope you all like it.

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Work sucked ass today. I got about 3 hours of sleep (this morning) before work and was a total zombie all damn day. Then, to make matters worse, I royally FAILED a "shop" - HA! - get this shit; One of the guys from recieving who WORKS with me starts walking out the door (pass (my) pro checkout register) with a "shower" (literally) a shower stall... I don't think much of it, cause I'm thinking - "we don't have a lot loader today, so Tad must be loading the thing..." I ask him, kinda of jokingly, "Hey you! Can I see your receipt for that?!"

he flashes it at me from a distance, and waive him off...

BAM. I'm surrounded by management and Tad turns around with the shower stall and takes it back to the pro desk.

HA!

Apparently we get "shopped" by our own employees.

I was SO fucking pissed! I couldn't believe they had him do that; there whole thing was (apparently) "internal theft internal theft internal theft"

All I could say was, fine. You want me to check everything that walks thru that door - no problem...

later on today when the STORE manager was walking through the store to go home, I insisted that I look thru his huge lunch box cooler.

MUAHAHA.... don't have to tell me twice. Ain't NO one leaving that door without me personally and specifically checking their shit.

They are all gonna hate me, but whatever.... I do not plan to fail another LAME (employee) shop! RAWR.

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Also, on a more serious (sad) note... my gramma is "sick"

SIGH...

I've known about it for a while - she has a heart defect; her valve does not work properly. Basically, the doctor's told her that she either decides to take the risk and fix it, or die from it...

My dad told me a few days ago and I've been worried, chewing on it since... When I was a little girl, my gramma was practically my mom. I'm attached to her at the hip... to know that I might lose her just kills me inside. She is such a strong woman. SO STRONG; she does everything herself - i get a lot of my traits from her - her artistic, independent side definitely stuck to my genes.

I admire and love her so so so much. I can't imagine having to lose her now; it makes my stomach turn.

I told work about it, and thankfully they said, "let us know and do what you gotta do"... so, when the time comes (which will be soon) she will be going in for surgery and I will be leaving to go back to california to be with her...

My gramma is such a young soul. The only thing that is holding her back from living another 15+ years is that damn heart defect she can NOT die from that. I will lose my head and my heart will die with hers.

Please, think happy thoughts (and prayers, if u pray) for my gramma - she is my world.

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Also, I wanted to thank NoahMack who is in Iraq now, fighting for our country... He is the FIRST person to send me ANY gift from my wish list... I am so terribly flattered and greatful for him and his graciousness and generosity... He got me an adorable pair of shoes and a new set of my favorite colored pencils! I was SO excited to find out that I had packages when I got home from work the other day...

I plan to ADD pics to this post (or the next one) of them... so look out...

I never EVER expected anyone to get me anything off that list; really, it was just a "time killer" for me; when i get bored, every once in a while i'll spend a day "online window shopping"... and throw stuff that i really like on the list...

anyways, it was so so so sweet of him to get me anything, let alone even consider it...

THANK YOU (again) NOAH! Muah! Muah! Muah! i'll send u pics soon! XOxoXOxoXO

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So yeah... lots of interesting, good stuff, and lots of interesting crappy stuff...

SIGH...

I'm just glad that my gramma decided to try to fix the issue instead of just giving up. So while I am scared for her going thru the surgery, I am also relieved that she is taking action. She's too good a person and too strong a person to NOT try to fix it...

I should know better from her and learn from her and the way she lives her life. She is a tru inspiration; I am "healthier" because of her - she is a big reason why I am still around... and not dead in a coffin somewhere with scars on my wrists...

I HEART HER...