tathra

so what sucks is that, after my illegal demotion and suffering through discrimination, it appears that, at store level, there's just a big misunderstanding. but the fact remains that what happened is illegal. hopefully i'll feel well enough tomorrow to call this lawyer and get the ball rolling. thats one of the first steps in getting my life back together. the other 'first step' is running concurrently with this one, and all the subcomponents for that first step all have to run concurrently too. after this, every other step runs concurrently, and one of the big problems is not having a clear starting point. too much freedom leads to excessive procrastination. as paradioxical as it sounds, true freedom is really more confining than liberating.

maybe i should write out a detailed plan and force a schedule on myself, specifying exactly when i should complete each task. the only problem is my lack of motivation when alone, so i'll just look at it and say, "eh, whats the point" and begin drifting back towards the bottom again... so here's to hoping i can stay on top of things.