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so here is my really self centered stupid journal entry for today: my normal weight is around 150-155 lbs. last year was my freshman year of school and i gained the freshman 15 or whatnot, and i came back in june and i was 170 lbs. eek indeed. so yeah this summer i was all chubbsy but then i got sick with migraines and kind of forgot to eat for awhile and got put on all of these weird medications that fucked with my appetite so now i'm around 136 lbs. i'm trying to get to 130 because that's what i weighed in 8th grade and i think that would be really 'kawaii' yeah, but the problem is that none of my clothes fit me. i have a few cotton skirts from middle school in the back of my closet but i can't wear them until summer. right now it's fucking freezing and the only pants i have that fit me are a pair of beige courds that were skin tight on me two years ago and fit me perfectly now. i also have a pair of jeans i bought at the gap a few months ago that are sagging off of my hips. i am getting fucking tired of these beige courderoys but i dont want to waste money on pants because i'll probably keep gaining and loosing weight until this medication situation gets figured out. i cant wait until summer. i have no clothes. ok, i'm done being an idiot now. bye.