Happy 24th birthday to my younger sister, Brittney.
So to wrap up 2009 I will be, probably doing nothing as this seems to be my way. Seems so much to be my way that i have let the last decade and 25 years of my life be a stretch of misery that I could have probably done in prison and felt happier about.
The entirety of my legal working career, or definite lack there of, has been a series of jobs that have only added to my monotony and misery, boredom and bitchiness. I think a lot, much more than I would like at times, especially when I need to sleep for the first time in a week or so. During the course of cognition of I have up with so many ideas of what I could do and it always ends up with the same result, I am unhappy. Well apart from a complete submersion into crime and all of that stuff that makes life difficult for people facing interrogation about their line of work, I have not found a better way to go about making a living.
I have spent years trying to figure out what to do with my life. With my over-analysis and reanalysis, I have done a great job at developing a glacial pace at which I go about getting into things. This has affected all aspects of my life, as these things tend to do. Some relationships have failed and not happened because of it. Job opportunities missed. Travel and vacation chances blew by because I just do not pull the trigger in some situations.
I never knew what I wanted to do in High School, not even in college. My work ethic and motivation to work hard or even really work for money was ruined at an early age by my ability to play pool well and my connections with professional gamblers. I learned at a very early age that "Money won is twice as sweet as money earned" -Fast Eddie Felson/ Paul Newman. I do not gamble so much anymore, for many reasons, abilities wane over time, mine do at least.
I went to college, my mother told me to just try to Nursing program, they pay well. Without any other idea of what I wanted to do, I agreed. Ran out of money and financial aid was a joke. Did not finish. Left college and went to the plants. Made some money but never enough. Decided that I wanted to try out Mortuary Science. Never got anywhere with it. Still cannot afford it. Worked and worked and went to school. Went back to work then school for a certification that I have not done anything with as the job market is not with the need. Still working. Still unhappy.
Before moving on, this is a quick run down of where I sit in 2009.
25 years old
Single
Still living with mother. Note: "still" as I have never moved out
Dead end job, my employment ends when the job finishes, months away at best.
Very limited number of real friends, most are acquaintances that hang about while they can use me for something.
I owe the iRS money, as they are greedy cunts
Nothing really going on or well for me
So so SO!! Recently I was thinking about how much I fucking hate working for companies only to make money for them. I work for contractors that charge $40 an hour for me but only pay me $10 or 14, and have a problem giving me a raise because of how much it cuts into the profit pad of that $40/hr. So with several years of industrial and construction experience and knowledge, an interest in Mortuary Science and a tolerance for stenches and the odors of decay, what manner of madness can I conjure up can call an ingenious idea?? I am starting a Crime, Trauma and Accident Scene Decontamination company. I have found a couple people to work for me that have incredibly helpful connections. I am moving to another city that has a better market for my services. I have the whole thing planned out. If this does not work, maybe mom will let me come back. If not, my sister is finishing up her military career and wants me to live with her while she is in college, I can work and pay the rent while she gets some schoolin' in.
Regardless of what happens, if I am still in the same situation list above, except a year or so older, I give my permission to the SG community to take me to the town center and stone me to death, maybe you will get better crops out of it.
So I would much prefer that everyone have safe celebrations of the New Year and all of that jazz that goes with it. And let us all severely improve our lives and situations in the new year and decade.
Cheers to 2010, Welcome! To my people, alla nostra salute!
So to wrap up 2009 I will be, probably doing nothing as this seems to be my way. Seems so much to be my way that i have let the last decade and 25 years of my life be a stretch of misery that I could have probably done in prison and felt happier about.
The entirety of my legal working career, or definite lack there of, has been a series of jobs that have only added to my monotony and misery, boredom and bitchiness. I think a lot, much more than I would like at times, especially when I need to sleep for the first time in a week or so. During the course of cognition of I have up with so many ideas of what I could do and it always ends up with the same result, I am unhappy. Well apart from a complete submersion into crime and all of that stuff that makes life difficult for people facing interrogation about their line of work, I have not found a better way to go about making a living.
I have spent years trying to figure out what to do with my life. With my over-analysis and reanalysis, I have done a great job at developing a glacial pace at which I go about getting into things. This has affected all aspects of my life, as these things tend to do. Some relationships have failed and not happened because of it. Job opportunities missed. Travel and vacation chances blew by because I just do not pull the trigger in some situations.
I never knew what I wanted to do in High School, not even in college. My work ethic and motivation to work hard or even really work for money was ruined at an early age by my ability to play pool well and my connections with professional gamblers. I learned at a very early age that "Money won is twice as sweet as money earned" -Fast Eddie Felson/ Paul Newman. I do not gamble so much anymore, for many reasons, abilities wane over time, mine do at least.
I went to college, my mother told me to just try to Nursing program, they pay well. Without any other idea of what I wanted to do, I agreed. Ran out of money and financial aid was a joke. Did not finish. Left college and went to the plants. Made some money but never enough. Decided that I wanted to try out Mortuary Science. Never got anywhere with it. Still cannot afford it. Worked and worked and went to school. Went back to work then school for a certification that I have not done anything with as the job market is not with the need. Still working. Still unhappy.
Before moving on, this is a quick run down of where I sit in 2009.
25 years old
Single
Still living with mother. Note: "still" as I have never moved out
Dead end job, my employment ends when the job finishes, months away at best.
Very limited number of real friends, most are acquaintances that hang about while they can use me for something.
I owe the iRS money, as they are greedy cunts
Nothing really going on or well for me
So so SO!! Recently I was thinking about how much I fucking hate working for companies only to make money for them. I work for contractors that charge $40 an hour for me but only pay me $10 or 14, and have a problem giving me a raise because of how much it cuts into the profit pad of that $40/hr. So with several years of industrial and construction experience and knowledge, an interest in Mortuary Science and a tolerance for stenches and the odors of decay, what manner of madness can I conjure up can call an ingenious idea?? I am starting a Crime, Trauma and Accident Scene Decontamination company. I have found a couple people to work for me that have incredibly helpful connections. I am moving to another city that has a better market for my services. I have the whole thing planned out. If this does not work, maybe mom will let me come back. If not, my sister is finishing up her military career and wants me to live with her while she is in college, I can work and pay the rent while she gets some schoolin' in.
Regardless of what happens, if I am still in the same situation list above, except a year or so older, I give my permission to the SG community to take me to the town center and stone me to death, maybe you will get better crops out of it.
So I would much prefer that everyone have safe celebrations of the New Year and all of that jazz that goes with it. And let us all severely improve our lives and situations in the new year and decade.
Cheers to 2010, Welcome! To my people, alla nostra salute!
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whiteout:
I have put in a request for you to take over the Marilyn Manson Fans group. Enjoy.
whiteout:
jeffyjr is getting the Tool group. You were the fist two in both groups to respond and pretty much the only ones to.