I have been doing an almost total shit job at updating this, partially because my internet sucks. And I need to buy a new camera, don't know which to go with. And I need to buy a new gun and a new pool cue and a new car. HAHA and I make no where near enough money for any of this shit! I am waiting on a new job that I have lined up in the middle of January. My job is dependant on the company getting another job.
So my sister wants to buy some hideous dome shaped house and she wants me to be her roomie. So all of this means I cannot fuck around about my jobs anymore. I have to keep one and be even more responsible. Gamble more and sell more- yeah so I have to figure out what to do. I don't even know how long I have to get my shit together as she is coming home today from Germany on a leave and is going to be out of the military in april. No one tells me anything until it is too late, so I get stuck with extra stress because of their lack of planning.
This seems like a place for a paragraph break. So this whole house thing has me uncertain for the reasons that: the place is hideous.
It is 20 miles out of my town and away from my routine and job and all of that jazz. I have not seen the inside of the house, only a small printed out picture of the outside of it. My mother and other sister went and saw the place and claim its big inside, 4 bedrooms 3 bathrooms and some other stuff. So I can probably get a pool table in somewhere. I would much prefer a 9 or 10 foot table. But I don't know what the place will accomodate or if she will even get the place at all. For now I make no plans as my plans always seem to fail.
I am certain that my negativity and unwillingness to change is still making things more difficult for me. But I am stubborn and would like to think that I am too smart to break my rules and allow myself to set myself up for more disappointment. But it seems that there is a good chance that I am just too stupid to enable myself to be happy and stop being so bitter. I have been letting go of a lot of things lately and I feel a touch better for it. But positivity just does not appeal to me. So I stick with my ridiculous logic of: Prepare for the worst, prefer the best and hope for nothing.
As much as I would prefer to contine whining and what not I have to get a few more things finished before going to the airport to pick up my sister.
Call or text 361-655-2223
So my sister wants to buy some hideous dome shaped house and she wants me to be her roomie. So all of this means I cannot fuck around about my jobs anymore. I have to keep one and be even more responsible. Gamble more and sell more- yeah so I have to figure out what to do. I don't even know how long I have to get my shit together as she is coming home today from Germany on a leave and is going to be out of the military in april. No one tells me anything until it is too late, so I get stuck with extra stress because of their lack of planning.
This seems like a place for a paragraph break. So this whole house thing has me uncertain for the reasons that: the place is hideous.
It is 20 miles out of my town and away from my routine and job and all of that jazz. I have not seen the inside of the house, only a small printed out picture of the outside of it. My mother and other sister went and saw the place and claim its big inside, 4 bedrooms 3 bathrooms and some other stuff. So I can probably get a pool table in somewhere. I would much prefer a 9 or 10 foot table. But I don't know what the place will accomodate or if she will even get the place at all. For now I make no plans as my plans always seem to fail.
I am certain that my negativity and unwillingness to change is still making things more difficult for me. But I am stubborn and would like to think that I am too smart to break my rules and allow myself to set myself up for more disappointment. But it seems that there is a good chance that I am just too stupid to enable myself to be happy and stop being so bitter. I have been letting go of a lot of things lately and I feel a touch better for it. But positivity just does not appeal to me. So I stick with my ridiculous logic of: Prepare for the worst, prefer the best and hope for nothing.
As much as I would prefer to contine whining and what not I have to get a few more things finished before going to the airport to pick up my sister.
Call or text 361-655-2223
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scotty:
Haha, yeah, only 1 vote a day allowed 
rydell:
he snuggled her while we watched Dark Crystal