It has been an interesting year to say the least. I turned 45 this year, my oldest son graduated from high school, and I had the chance to stop worrying about providing for my 2 boys and to take a serious look at what I was doing with my life.
I have not been happy with my job for a couple years now but was afraid to leave because it will be very hard to find one that pays the same kind of money. I used to refer to this as The Golden Hancuffs - Money had become the main reason that I stayed there and it had a pretty tight grip on me. This was not always the case because when I was first hired on through a territory takeover, I thought I had won the lottery and would never leave such a great place.
With my youngest graduating, I talked to him about what he wanted to do in life and stressed the importance of loving what he picked as a career. One night, while on an all night cocaine truth session with close friends, I came to the conclusion that I needed to follow my own advice and find something that I actually love to do. This was in May of this year. I should have quit at that point, but due to the bonus structure I was working under, it was significantly better to finish off the year. Well my mind and body shut down in October, giving me notice that I couldn't wait any longer and had to leave.
I have been off for about a month now and can thankfully afford to not work for a few more months while figuring out what my true calling is. The one thing I know so far is that my destiny was not selling industrial equipment to oil companies in Alberta. I also know that I want to make a positive difference in people's lives going forward. I'm not sure just what that will be yet, but I'm excited about the possibilities.
I plan on keeping this blog as a running dialogue on my transformation and appreciate input from my fellow members on their experiences and ideas.
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