tarzan

My house at home dosent even feel like a home anymore. all my shits clean out in my room, its now the computer room withh all that stuff on the desk in my corner. Most of thes tuffs taken down off the walls and packed away god knows where.

I jusst came home, sat down and cryed for a while. It seems like so much of my life is changing and moving to fast for me, and this was just one more thing.

Ive been having shitty dreams all the time again, and seeing smoke that isnt really there sometimes. The last couple of weeks have been really rough, and ive been self medicating. I need to not do that anymore, getting my Girlfriend pissed at me, and having a two hour car ride home y myself halped me to see that.

My mother thinks that I might need to have my medication increased, seasonal shit and the like. I dont want to be numb and un feeling. But goddamn ive just flatout been prettymuch unhappy alot for no reason, and just about nothing is making me feel better about it.

I dont know, whatever, Im going to bed.