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why is it that eveyr time that I find something even close to stability I lose it? Why is that I'm not stable enough to deal with it? WHy is that every time someone else breaks down they come to me to put them back together? When did I become everyones backbone? Why am I the flame you need lit undernaeath your ass? what happens when the flame dies out? when do I get a chance to break down? who holds me up then?