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i feel depressed.

i want to roll around naked on my hardwood floors with all the blinds closed and the lights off with some sad placebo song playing in the background.

i want to snort lines and get drunk.

what is my problem?

i haven't felt like this in so long...

"can this saviour be for real or are you just my seventh seal?"

i'm...
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oklahoma sucks so much. add one more to the list of poeple i thought were my friends but it turns out they're just assholes seeing what they can get out of me while it's convenient for them.

anyways- we're in our new house now!!! YAY!!! i love it sooooo much! hardwood floors and a brand new new dishwasher and refridgerator! i can't wait to start...
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thanks for the compliments on my set in the hopefulls group everyone!! we had a lot of fun shooting it, but it isn't quite what i'd like to send in. i have an AWESOME concept in the works and am shooting next tuesday for it. *fingers crossed*

leaving for oklahoma for a few days today (mah bestest friend is gettin' married!) and when i come...
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PHOTOSHOOT TODAY!!! hope i don't get nervous or something...

i am in the middle of dying my hair (just refreshing the red.) and am about to hop in the shower (rawr!) then i'm going to gather together all my clothes and make-up and what not so i'll be ready to go to Idjiit and Kitchsy's when wil7877 gets home.
hope this set gets accepted!!! wish...
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i will be SO glad when the morning sickness period is over. i had to make a mad dash to the bathroom at the mall today so i could be sure to hurl into the toilet instead of in line at the pizza place. ulch.

i got a haircut today and it is mighty cute if i do say so myself. a nice little a-line...
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things are happening with me, but i really don't know what to say about them....

i'm doing another photoset to submit to SG the begining of next week and i will be assisted by the lovely couple Idjiit and Kitschy. I'm a little nervous about how it will turn out, but mainly cause my body doesn't really look like it did a month or...
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HOLLa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

9 wks preggers today!!

welp, the hubby and i went bowling in raleigh on friday with the SGNC peeps. lots of nice folks and good clean fun.
the drive home sucked though cause we were both passing out at the wheel, the windshield wipers weren't working so i couldn't see the road and then i got clipped by some drunk ass who didn't even stop!! all it did wa...
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ulch. i keep having bad dreams lately.

night before last i kept dreaming that there was a rat trapped inside the wall and it kept clawing it's way out and trying to attack me- and last night i had 3 horrible dreams!
i had a dream that my step dad took me far far away and left me there stranded (which is weird since i...
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hello hello everyone.

sorry about that last post. i was a little moody. damn pregnancy hormones. though i did mean most of what i said, so i guess it's all good.

i've made it out to north carolina!!! i miss the idea of oklahoma so much, but i'm still glad i left. we move into our house at ft. bragg in a few weeks and...
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