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ulch. i keep having bad dreams lately.

night before last i kept dreaming that there was a rat trapped inside the wall and it kept clawing it's way out and trying to attack me- and last night i had 3 horrible dreams!
i had a dream that my step dad took me far far away and left me there stranded (which is weird since i was always really cool with my stepdad and i haven't seen or spoken to him in almost 11 months now.)
i had another dream that some annonymous guy was forcing me to give head to him in a swimming pool or some kind of body of water and i couldn't get away and i drowned.

and then the worst dream....

i dreamt i lost the baby.

i woke up so scared and freaked out. i do not want to loose another baby. it's bad enough every little twinge and pain in my belly freaks me out without having dreams about it too.

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but on a good note: i'm going bowling with the SGNC people friday!!!! yay!!!! can't wait to meet you all!!!