tartpop

i haven't done any knitting in over a month and i am itching to pick up the needles again. i just can't decide what to knit. with the weather turning warmer it really limits things. i could always make a bag or purse or something, but really i have more than enough of those as it is. i could use a cardigan, but i'm not sure if i'm brave enough to dive into the world of sleeves. maybe i'll try making a baby sized cardigan. i'll learn a new technique AND it will be quicker to knit up AND materials won't cost as much. there's a really awesome pattern for a baby cardigan with tattoo flash details in one of the Stitch n Bitch books....

we're getting ready for john to be deployed to iraq this summer and have to fill out this form that has all these questions about how do we want things done "in the event that the soldier becomes a casualty." it asks things like, who do we want to escort the remains back to the states, buried or cremeated, military or civilian funeral.
sigh....
i know it's things that have to be addressed, but i really have been trying for months to push thoughts like that out of my mind...i don't want to think about the possibility of my husband not coming home...it's bad enough he'll be missing out on 9 months of his children's lives. kids change SO much so fast when they are as young as ours are. he'll miss Ephraim's first birthday, well, pretty much all of his firsts. His first tooth, first step....He'll probably be a stranger to the boys by the time he comes home.

i'm glad he's getting out after this enlistment is up. granted that won't be until 2009 or something like that, so there's still plenty of time for him to be deployed again and again, but at least there's an end to all this in site...

poo.
now i'm depressed.
i think i'll go look at yarn to cheer myself up.