tarragon

Today is a beautiful day but seems tinged with regret.

I dont like the feeling of knowing there is someone out there that I am no longer on speaking terms with when just a short while ago we were getting on so well.

I hate the fact that I had to tell them not to contact me again because we were just hurting each others feelings. I cant bring myself to hate them for the rest of my life. What was said in the past is in the past.

I needed time to breathe, the space to step back and re-evaluate, to deal with the feelings of having lost something that should have been worth fighting for not fighting over.

I know they are still angry about how things turned out. I know things won't ever be as good as they were in the beginning but it's always in the back of my mind that we're not speaking anymore and that fills me with regret.

I'm not sure if they will ever read this but this is my olive branch.