tarnished_fairy

How do you make someone understand that you don't have the money to just blow on random stupid shit like scratch & win tix and fast food, and anything else that happens to catch an eye?

I'm sick of telling max that we don't have any money...

the only answer he ever has is "It's fine"

IT'S NOT FUCKING FINE!!! You're spending our grocery money!...
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Ever since i was a little girl i've been infatuated with the stories of the neo celebrity it girl. more commonly known as the poor little rich girl who's fall from grace lighted the way for not only her own self destruction but the love of nation. it's funny, the more fucked up someone seems the more we seem to flock to them. I'm not...
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Invisible... I guess sometimes i wonder if i'm really here or if i'm dreaming most of the world around me. caught in a struggle between reality and the world i've created. In no way balanced... my mind feels torn.

Getting one's shit together is no longer as easy as it once seemed.

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well... 2008 is here and so far it has started off not...
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I'm so fucking sick of having to deal with people.

my stepdad was supposed to be taking care of everything regarding the car that max hit a few weeks ago... but no. he's pulling his superiority complex bullshit on everyone. in short, he tells the girl that he'll call her in a few hours to set up when he can come in and see the...
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found the best fucking anime/videogame soundtrack download site ever!

now i'm only missing one song for the wedding (if anyone has the ending theme to Le Chevalier D'Eon could you please send it my way please thanks)

and it didn't cost me a shitload either... anime soundtracks are $30-60 a peice (even on ebay) so i feel very lucky right now that i got them...
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last night we went out to dinner with max's dad and his wife. it's always awkward but hey i didn't have to cook for a night. anyway we got them each a christmas pressie.

dad got a cd that max burned him and had lightscribed. it looked good and he seemed to like it.

for kat (the wife) we got a pretty necklace.. sparkly but...
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Year in Review

1) Where/ who did you begin 2007?
at home with max

2) What was your status on Valentine's Day?
taken

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
nope thankfully

4) How did you earn your money?
i worked at stillpoint healing center till march, sold a lot of my shit on ebay, baking

5) Did you have to go to the...
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i'm so sick of hearing shit that i don't want to hear.

last night max told me what his mother first said and thought about me:

"ohh, you usually only date skinny girls"

inlaws.. parents.. people.. fuck.

done.

I realized that since we are actually having wedding rings i'm gonna need a ring bearer ( and possibly a flower girl) for the wedding. the though of the best man holding on to the rings... well i'm 95% sure that ryan will forget them or just think it'll be funny to not bring them. him and max are like that.

ohh yea and i'm...
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