tarnished_fairy

it seems that all i'm doing lately is retracing my steps, rethinking, replanning, redoing.

I'm pissed at a few people.. The same people who bitch at me constantly for never hanging out with them, even if they give me 5 hours notice for a camping trip, the same people who didn't talk to me for a fucking year.

I use that word entirely too much.

So i plan something, a summer celebration picnic. I figure it will be a good way to recharge my batteries, spend one day outside and catch up with those who i actually miss. I ask everyone ahead of time what days work so i can find a happy medium. So i take that and set the date.

and guess what?

only one person can come. I switched the day... which actually works better for me. Now i'm waiting. Honestly i no longer care. They bitch and bitch and when i actually do something they back out. making everything they told me before a lie.

It's good practice for the dinner party i'm being made to throw sometime soon. So this weekend i'm buying a basket, a cooler, a couple blankets and picking out a park where we can all meet up. I'm thinking it's gonna be near me or somewhere downtown which is kinda accessible to everyone.. but then leaves question for quality. Anyway i have until saturday night to decide.... there is a school near where i live... not too far bout a half hour walk... if we go to the far side of it closer to the homes... that would so work. I'll have to take the car and go look tonight.

overall today hasn't been terrible. I'm running on no sleep again but i did get some good mail. A pretty little rozen maiden ring that i ordered. I love that show now, it's so cute. I also ordered max a fate stay night keychain.

I'm just tired.. and have once again forgotten about the laundry... ugh. bye