tarnished_fairy

This is one of the hardest blogs i've ever had to write so i'm sorry if it's shaky.

I need to make some money pretty badly as times just hit extremely fucking tough. Max's company is going under....his last day is this friday.

So I'm selling my autographs.

All of my autographs are original, authentic, NO preprints or Autopens, the paper and photos have actually...
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Ok I have a serious question... why is it that in all aspects of my life people (and by people i mean complete strangers) think that i'm a stupid kid who can't do anything? Really an answer would be nice.

This guy came into stillpoint about booking the workshop room. He listed off 3 things he wanted me to do in accordance with our calendar,...
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that pretty much describes how i am right now. Well, i feel a little better from having my heart shattered into a million peices. My brother showed up today and for the first time in a long time actually acted like a brother. He hugged me and let me cry as i struggled to talk about everything that had happened. Sometimes you just need to...
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I was right....

On Friday night my heart got broken.. shattered actually. How many times can a heart rebuild itself, before it can't be mended anymore?

Max was keeping some really major shit involving someone who hates me from me, he even lied about it. Everything's been admitted now, it's all out.

Until this morning i couldn't go 5 minutes without crying. My eyes still...
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I've learned that things tend to fall apart on the weekends... or i find out something that's unsettling. Then i'm stuck with it all weekend with nothing to distract me from the facts of the situation. I've been let down again, or at least that's how it feels to me right now, i guess it always will... a fabrication of sorts.

What's the point?

Today...
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yesterday was bad for a multitude of reasons. my brother showed up at work and was pissed at me for no real reason other then he thinks that the world should bend over backwards to make him happy. A couple of creeps called and i had to deal with them.

Then i had a panic attack at work. It felt like i got hit with...
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So i'm thinking that i need to have a party or celebration of some kind...

!!horray i'm NOT pregnant party!!



Seriously? Wouldn't that be cool, and a great way to show my body that i want the little knife weilding maniac to come slash up my uterus once a month instead of letting something live and grow there? Teehee.

It'll be like those celebrations that...
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"Some people play tennis, i erode the human soul"

SO now that i've realized what i'm meant to do in this life (aside from being a 1950s housewife) it opens up a whole new perspective and opportunity in my life.

Step one: write my fairy tale. As stated before revamp the fuck out of it, twist it, make it better.

step two: work on getting it published... this sadly requires (or is at least...
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I've realized what i really want to do with my life.
it came to me last night
i also know why i have a boring ass job
so that i have time to work on it

i'm going to be (and i'm meant to be) a writer.

I'm going to totally revamp my first fairy tale, make it longer then children's book size.
i've finally...
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I'm hoping that all the money shit that's going on is the end of the bad, the clearing out of all the final shit so that the good can start to come in.

Some little piss ant got a hold of my credit card info. They only made one charge... to start a cell phone account with virgin wireless, but they were about to make...
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you know... when i was younger i used to think that it would be so great to have my real dad in the picture. Even though he abandoned us, i would have given anything to have him in my life. And then i got that.... it caused a lot of problems with my mom.... she didn't trust him, wondered what his motives were....

i wish...
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