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Friday Jul 29, 2005

Jul 29, 2005
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dEREKTheReds grandpa passed away Wednesday morning, give him some love. frown frown frown frown frown

Update:

The funeral will be on Tuesday. Derek is such a strong person! He went to work today, and so far he's been taking everything really well. The funeral will definitely be hard on him, I'm sure thats when the finality of it all will set it.

The worst thing about all of this is that his grandma is now left to care for dereks aunt who is handicaped and in a wheel chair, all alone. Even though grandpas health was fading, he was still a huge part of their team, when caring for Aunt Pam. So not only has she lost her partner in life, but she has to care for Pam all alone, when her husand was always there by her side, helping her through it. She's a really tough cookie though. She's kept the bravest face of us all, the whole time. I think Dereks other aunt will probably help out a lot when it comes to Pam, but she has a job and life of her own, so I don't know how much help she will be able to provide frown frown

My poor baby, I can't begin to imagine how he's feeling. I know he's heartbroken, but I can't fathom the pain, or the feeling of loss.

It's so scary, getting to be the age that I am, and having only witnessed death a few times, and even then it wasn't my own flesh and blood, but Dereks. And while it's been really hard for me(especially when his grandma Zikuda passed), I know that when my grandparents and family members begin to pass, I won't be able to deal with it. Because I've been around them all for so long, I just took for granted that they would always be around. But my grandpa G. is 80, and while he's still in pretty good shape, as evidenced by dereks grandmother, a lot can change in as little as 6 months. And it scares the shit out of me because he's such an important figure in my life.

But I'm not trying to think of all that right now, I'm just focusing on the D-man, and trying my best to help him cope with his loss. Thank you all so much for your kind words. We really appreciate it.
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burningleviathan:
thats okay. i'm glad you two are dealing with the grief well.

Yeah they are, i'm glad you met someone you connect with so well.
weve figured it out for the most part.

thank you for the compliment.
Aug 4, 2005
howdypardner:
you'd actually be surprised how well you can learn to cope. . .It sucks and is hard for a time, but then life has this way of moving on, you get past the grief and live, sometimes you still cry and have fond memories, but death is eventual. . .we all have to pass that veil sometime. . .I don't know. The main thing is it can hurt and shit, but you can learn to live again, life can forces you, the sun still rises and sets and you still have yourself to take care of. . .
Aug 4, 2005

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