Thursday Jul 24, 2003

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i've never been in love. i thought i was a few times,but as i look back i realize that it was just convenience. it always ends the same-spiteful words coming out of my mouth for no reason,hurt feelings,and then they leave and i feel sorry for myself.
i love my dog. i love my family. but i just can't bring myself to love a man. i can never fully give myself up-share my thoughts and fears and dreams. maybe someone will come along and make me feel that it is ok to give up my secrets.

someday

or not

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babybeezer:
try a woman?

I'm a closed little clam. I allow myself to love--sometimes--but goddamn it's hard to get me to share my secrets
diggity:
i've been in love, so much so, that at times each heatbeat was a pulse of pain and promise. i've been in the kind of love, that consumes itself, because it's not fed enough by the other persons passion or presence. i've been loved by something that felt like greed and hunger. i've been loved by something that seemed like denial and fancy. Most of these went away. I still feel others. What I do know, for me, is that being in love with someone is not enough. I think it's unlikely that I'll ever find someone, that I can put up with, that can put up with how I love, for any significant period of time. I do think I'll find someone, who respects my secrets, and delights in making new ones with me.
Ya vas liubliu, comrade.


[Edited on Jul 25, 2003]

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