Well
ho ho ho! i shall say, as soon as i start writting this thing where we put words that noone really cares or noone everknows? haha brand new. anyways
christmas is around the corner and it makes you think, it makes you realize and it makes you infatuate the moment in your mind and as images, words and ideas come to mind i think....
wow
what have i come up to this year
i came to study something wich i failed and well it wasent my first priority but well thats alright, i have another chance in january wich ill try my best to succeed because im sick of failure and because i want to be able to say im succesful in something for once.
ive been struggleing with trying to become a happy person because well ive become someone unhealthy and yeah ive gaigned like 50 pounds wich im planning to lose and hopefully more as soon as the year starts, thats my resolution, not coz i look bad wich i think i do, but because im just sick of feeling like the biggest person in the room and because i want confidence and iwant to feel like i deserve something from someone, wich by the way hasent come, yeap im still single and im about to turn 20 so 20 years and counting hahaha.I really havent found someone to replace or try to replace the friends i had in costa rica wich i still carry in my heart and probably will forever, even though it may have been boring or maybe igot sick of em for a while coz i do get sick of everybody some days but i love em and miss em alot because well it was something i dont have here, someone to talk to, someone to joke around with, someone to listen to music with, someone to just spend some time with and well here i spend most of the time alone because, well, hanging out outside with myself is the same thing that hanging out inside so why bother.
im proud of what ive became, iknow ive made alot of mistakes and i will probably do more but hey im human, theres alot of people ive affected, friendships ive lost and im terribly sorry for mistakes ive done but im human and i accept i failed and i made stupid things like we all do, but im someone more mature even if i joke around and act like a dumbass most of the time, im serious and i can be serious when i have to be, the ones that know me well know that and i just think that im a better person that most of the people that are out there who just want to take advantage of someone or just see what they can get from someone, and me being someone who is used and who is always someone who gives more than what he gets helps me believe im a better person.
im a good friend, im always there for most of my friends even when most of em just talk to me when they are in a shitty mood or when they need something from me, hey im always here and im always trying to help, i will most likely not turn my back on you but well that doestn mean i will let you step over me or anythinjg but thats another subject, ooops typo there.
now, about christmas,
im used to spend christmas with the people i love, my family, most of the time in mexico with my crazy cousins and my uncles, wandering around or driving around, having fun with the drunk old people that walk on the streets around 3 am when everything closes and they are too drunk to go back home or just being jackasses all the time, or id spend it in costarica with my beloved friends and my beloved father mother and brother who i love and miss more than anyone else, i miss my moms and dads hugs more than possibly anything anyone could miss but this is a test i have to pass and its an experience that will help me for the rest of my life blah blah u know hahaha so i have to be strong, even if im going to miss a fucking delicious xmas fest with my family or even if im going to just be sitting in my room with my hommie midget stuffed dug playing xbox eating ramen noodles or maybe a bag of doritos who knows!
but i really wish you every single one of you the best on this seasons and i hope you all have a great time with your loved ones and enjoy all you can without exeeding ofcourse, now i sound like a grandma anyways, im making this thing too long for you to read so i shall say goodbye for now and merry christmass and happy new year or something? i mean hey isnt christmas about the presents anyways?! haha
love.Hans
ho ho ho! i shall say, as soon as i start writting this thing where we put words that noone really cares or noone everknows? haha brand new. anyways
christmas is around the corner and it makes you think, it makes you realize and it makes you infatuate the moment in your mind and as images, words and ideas come to mind i think....
wow
what have i come up to this year
i came to study something wich i failed and well it wasent my first priority but well thats alright, i have another chance in january wich ill try my best to succeed because im sick of failure and because i want to be able to say im succesful in something for once.
ive been struggleing with trying to become a happy person because well ive become someone unhealthy and yeah ive gaigned like 50 pounds wich im planning to lose and hopefully more as soon as the year starts, thats my resolution, not coz i look bad wich i think i do, but because im just sick of feeling like the biggest person in the room and because i want confidence and iwant to feel like i deserve something from someone, wich by the way hasent come, yeap im still single and im about to turn 20 so 20 years and counting hahaha.I really havent found someone to replace or try to replace the friends i had in costa rica wich i still carry in my heart and probably will forever, even though it may have been boring or maybe igot sick of em for a while coz i do get sick of everybody some days but i love em and miss em alot because well it was something i dont have here, someone to talk to, someone to joke around with, someone to listen to music with, someone to just spend some time with and well here i spend most of the time alone because, well, hanging out outside with myself is the same thing that hanging out inside so why bother.
im proud of what ive became, iknow ive made alot of mistakes and i will probably do more but hey im human, theres alot of people ive affected, friendships ive lost and im terribly sorry for mistakes ive done but im human and i accept i failed and i made stupid things like we all do, but im someone more mature even if i joke around and act like a dumbass most of the time, im serious and i can be serious when i have to be, the ones that know me well know that and i just think that im a better person that most of the people that are out there who just want to take advantage of someone or just see what they can get from someone, and me being someone who is used and who is always someone who gives more than what he gets helps me believe im a better person.
im a good friend, im always there for most of my friends even when most of em just talk to me when they are in a shitty mood or when they need something from me, hey im always here and im always trying to help, i will most likely not turn my back on you but well that doestn mean i will let you step over me or anythinjg but thats another subject, ooops typo there.
now, about christmas,
im used to spend christmas with the people i love, my family, most of the time in mexico with my crazy cousins and my uncles, wandering around or driving around, having fun with the drunk old people that walk on the streets around 3 am when everything closes and they are too drunk to go back home or just being jackasses all the time, or id spend it in costarica with my beloved friends and my beloved father mother and brother who i love and miss more than anyone else, i miss my moms and dads hugs more than possibly anything anyone could miss but this is a test i have to pass and its an experience that will help me for the rest of my life blah blah u know hahaha so i have to be strong, even if im going to miss a fucking delicious xmas fest with my family or even if im going to just be sitting in my room with my hommie midget stuffed dug playing xbox eating ramen noodles or maybe a bag of doritos who knows!
but i really wish you every single one of you the best on this seasons and i hope you all have a great time with your loved ones and enjoy all you can without exeeding ofcourse, now i sound like a grandma anyways, im making this thing too long for you to read so i shall say goodbye for now and merry christmass and happy new year or something? i mean hey isnt christmas about the presents anyways?! haha
love.Hans
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You'll be stressed out and thin and student like in no time flat. Works for me.... every september.