tantrum_child

RRAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!


this is definitely one of those tantrum moments
I just want to throw myself down on the floor and kick and scream and bash my fists and kick my mother

And why?
I don't fucking know, which makes me want to throw myself down harder and kick harder and yell louder about nothing, nothing at all "RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

Everything is just so frustrating today *kick*

Fucking houses are so hard to find *yell*

Fucking people being fucking weird *scream*

REALLY sick of dumb whores *extra kick*

JUST DONT WANNA PLAY ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *pound fists*



Why does everything have to be so hard?
All i want is a house beside the seaside.
I really feel so immature right now...
I actually and truly want to cry "it's not faiiiiiiiirrrr!!!" to the Gods.



Hmmmph...

Do you sometimes feel like you're making all the effort?
Do you sometimes feel like you're just... there?

i wanna be something! i wanna be special! and i want somewhere to fucking call home!
I don't wanna live out of my suitcase and my car anymore.
I want to lie in my backyard, or front yard, or bedroom (I'm not fussy) and read a book
I want to drive for less than 20 minutes to get to the beach so i can go for a run so i can get back to DOING something and get some routine back
I'm sick of eating junk food.
I want a fridge.
I'm sick of half doing my makeup
I want a bathroom.
I'm sick of crinkled clothes and dirty clothes
I want a cupboard

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmph... I'm off to sook.