tantrum_child

perhaps

maybe im not as far on my road to doom as i suspected
but thats me
i freak out in the moment
and then i get over it
but im not over it
im just feeling a little better
it helps having the most amazing boyfriend
in the world
who i can call
and talk through it all with
who i know would drop it all
in a second
if i needed him
who is sick with worry
about how im coping
because clearly
im not

today was better
feeling better about shit
but i spewed 4 times at work
and feel like i could go another chunder now
but am going to retire to bed instead....
not healthy
not healthy at all
working a lot
trying to keep busy
would rather be with friends
but am SO broke i need to work
as much as i can

need to strike happy medium
just need to see friends without spending money
and i'll be okays...

i love you frog
i don't know...
im floundering
and lost
and yet you're always there
i dont know how i found you
after a past of so much mistake
you're so beautiful
so perfect
my saving grace
and my angel

i smile just to think about you
goodnight
sweet dreams