tantrum_child

(( the harsh and biting reality is))

do you think
hypocrisy
could be an illness?
in most cases
it's obviously just
human nature
or poor character
but i just witnessed
an event
that caused me to consider...

my dad came home
at 630
he's normally home
at 530 or 6
and my mother
standing by my side
in the kitchen
(such proximity makes me sick)
looks at the clock
and dares to mutter
"6.30, hey?"
with a tut tut tone

surely she didn't
surely she couldn't
i stare at her
in awe
i want to slap her
kick her
i want her to be no longer
how can you harbour such a hatred
for someone
who bore you

i'm not sure
but i feel it

the nerve she has
to sit here
and to fuck up our lives
and smile like nothing's wrong
we know better sweetheart
and one day soon
you'll know too well

you've never known
you're weak and pathetic
and soon the enormity of your
situation
will be declared

and then you'll cry
and the pain and guilt
will eat you up inside
and you'll tell me
i'm all you live for
that i'm the only thing
you have left
and i'll pass onto you
the thing you taught me
above all

neglect

i'll turn away
because you're not
going to ruin my life
anymore.

p.s. to those who believe this is not necessary prose, i beg you to consider how much you know of the situation. if you know very little, don't judge. thank you.