tantrum_child

i'm not as sad as anticipated. tears don't feel the need to scream. no itchy wrists. so biting nails. no bitten palms.
and it's not because i don't care.
so often, i walk away, or they do, and i'm not really that affected. in most instances, it's primarily due to the underlying knowledge that it never really would have worked anyway. there's always prevalent issues,...
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i'm not as sad as anticipated. tears don't feel the need to scream. no itchy wrists. so biting nails. no bitten palms.
and it's not because i don't care.
so often, i walk away, or they do, and i'm not really that affected. in most instances, it's primarily due to the underlying knowledge that it never really would have worked anyway. there's always prevalent issues,...
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whats with the walking around like you own the world? what's with the ego?
fuck man, i can't handle to be around you anymore. someone needs to take you down, show you that you're not god's gift to the world.
someone out there, is better than you.
and a lot of people are happier.

i need to sort out my life. my priorities.
right now...
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i dont like getting drunk.
i like to drink
but i dont like getting drunk
i like to know what im doing
and to control my bodily functions
and i like to drink during the day
i like the sun
messing with my mind while people walk around
not drunk
and i giggle and laugh at them
while im tipsy
not drunk
cos i dont...
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I'm fucking stuck.
between this life that is my past and this life im not embarking upon.
i have all these things in front of me, inviting me, luring me in, taking me in, making me happy.
then i have my past.
it doesn't want to let go of me. and in some sick way i can't let go of it. i've tried. but i...
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and one last moment for today

im sick of pretty fucking people

a psych would prolly say im jealous

and he'd prolly be right.

isn't it funny how some people sit there and launch this massive campaign to convince you that theyre not like all the others, that you can trust them, that they know better, that they're deeper and more passionate, etc etc etc.
and yet, in the end, they may as well be exactly the same.
gutless wonders.

she says with her head cocked, wondering who in...
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Right
So
what is with people slipping up at the moment, forgetting they don't want me, and leaning in to kiss me? or calling me out of the blue? why do people keep coming back to me? and yet it doesn't send alarm bells ringing to any of them that maybe there's a reason it feels right with me... to be honest, im becoming much...
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well well well
here i am
back again
third account with suicide girls
keep getting broke and losing my account
or changing my mind and wanting another

but im back
and im loving the new site
and i just saw emi's set. fuck she's beautiful!!! SO hot!

sick day from work
very very tired
sleepy time soon me thinks
ahhhh im so slack
fuck 'em....
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