tank_girl

I moved out of my ex boyfriends house, I started to get severe anxiety of choking on my food and even had to get on medication. My therapist felt my boyfriend was the trigger and I always knew he was the trigger to pretty much everything. He has a way in making me angry and I have a way of making him angry. Its gotten to point where I've hit him several times and he's pushed me a few times. I am just not happy with him. He doesn't understand and I know that its time for me to move on. I will miss him alot in terms of our beginning memories together as me being the liqour store girl and him being my semi funny boss. I think that is why I hung onto him for so long, because I wanted it to be like that for so long in our home life. It couldn't be like that for us, that makes me sadder than he'll ever know. Now, its just me again, me and Bear. Maybe I'll adopt that cat Will, I wish I could, he was so sweet. I hope I eventually smile again and am a sane person again. Please let me be a sane person again. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. Goodbye Babe, Always Your Deviant.