Installment #3
You know its a game theyre playing, right? asked the British boy as they were waiting for their taxi to arrive. Its a game, and you have to play, too. You have to pretend it doesnt bother you. You have to know when your eyes are about to be red, then you have to swallow, breathe, look at me, and Ill give you...
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You know its a game theyre playing, right? asked the British boy as they were waiting for their taxi to arrive. Its a game, and you have to play, too. You have to pretend it doesnt bother you. You have to know when your eyes are about to be red, then you have to swallow, breathe, look at me, and Ill give you...
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Installment #2
At breakfast, she dreaded the school day, and wished she could stay with her little brother and ask him what he was. Maybe he would be able to tell her. She ate some sort of breakfast that her non-cooking mother gave her, and left for the taxi station where she would go on the first leg of her journey to school.
He was...
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At breakfast, she dreaded the school day, and wished she could stay with her little brother and ask him what he was. Maybe he would be able to tell her. She ate some sort of breakfast that her non-cooking mother gave her, and left for the taxi station where she would go on the first leg of her journey to school.
He was...
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iscout:
The truth is that since I've been on an SG journal strike my days have been a lot more productive, creatively and financially.
Preparing my journal entries, collecting the photos, resizing, uploading, checking every 15 min if anyone saw them or commented on them, finding something intelligent to post back on their journals and thanking them for posting on mine has been an interesting game in social interaction but it took six weeks out of my life during which I got nothing else done. The reward besides poverty has been a you don't belong.
I really don't understand the SG cast system. It must be extra difficult for girls. There are SG girls who get paid to get nakid, SG wannabes who pay in the hope to get paid to get nakid and then there are more brainy girls like you and bijoux who... why are you here?... all surrounded by men going
Oh and there is a ratio of 10 guys to a girl. It just doesn't seem healthy and wholesome. (Oh yeah who wants wholesome* huh?) It's more like some ancient civilization on some remote island that got hit by meteorite or some strange disease and decimated the female population and transformed the society to this cultish hierarchical cast system.
If I can't be equal among equals in a community, I don't want to be part of it.
*I googled wholesome to check the spelling and the first result was http://www.nudistweb.net/~wholesome/ (the christian aspects of naturism)
And I guess that's the good thing about SG, you find people who appreciate this sort of coincidence.
I am probably breaking some other unwritten rule with such a long "comment". Oh well...
Preparing my journal entries, collecting the photos, resizing, uploading, checking every 15 min if anyone saw them or commented on them, finding something intelligent to post back on their journals and thanking them for posting on mine has been an interesting game in social interaction but it took six weeks out of my life during which I got nothing else done. The reward besides poverty has been a you don't belong.
I really don't understand the SG cast system. It must be extra difficult for girls. There are SG girls who get paid to get nakid, SG wannabes who pay in the hope to get paid to get nakid and then there are more brainy girls like you and bijoux who... why are you here?... all surrounded by men going
Oh and there is a ratio of 10 guys to a girl. It just doesn't seem healthy and wholesome. (Oh yeah who wants wholesome* huh?) It's more like some ancient civilization on some remote island that got hit by meteorite or some strange disease and decimated the female population and transformed the society to this cultish hierarchical cast system.
If I can't be equal among equals in a community, I don't want to be part of it.
*I googled wholesome to check the spelling and the first result was http://www.nudistweb.net/~wholesome/ (the christian aspects of naturism)
And I guess that's the good thing about SG, you find people who appreciate this sort of coincidence.
I am probably breaking some other unwritten rule with such a long "comment". Oh well...
jj_r0x0rz:
oooh story
Installment #1
A wealthy British boy and a middle-class American girl together went to an international school in Europe. They would each, respectively, rise at the same time each day, from their beds in homes several kilometers apart.
His was a rented apartment from Germans untouched from the war, opulent and garish. He felt sometimes as though he would rather sleep under a bridge. The...
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A wealthy British boy and a middle-class American girl together went to an international school in Europe. They would each, respectively, rise at the same time each day, from their beds in homes several kilometers apart.
His was a rented apartment from Germans untouched from the war, opulent and garish. He felt sometimes as though he would rather sleep under a bridge. The...
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digdug:
oh yeah - i know about 5 mins to live. they have a bunch of titles that i have been dying to see (mainly all the gainsbourg ones), but i don't know if i want to buy them, esp. since they are often dubs, ya know?
reacher:
I think they should meet. Sounds like they would balance each other.
I have returned from San Francisco and had myself a nice time. Saturday, I visited my friend from 9th grade honors English whom I hadn't seen in over ten years, who now lives with his girlfriend in Berkeley. It was one of the nicest mornings I can remember having in a while. Donned the Reese's costume once more and went to a party Saturday night....
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reacher:
Lots of topics to discuss.
The aerobed I have is just a regular old camping sized one, but now that I see they have these raised pillowtop jobs, I gots to have me one!
As far as early mornings, every cell in my being revolts at the idea. I feel nauseous, headache prone, dizzy, sometimes I vomit a little, I'm physically clumsy, my memory becomes poor, my thought process is fragmented, I put the milk in the cupboard and the grape-nuts in the fridge, sound and noises become exaggerated and irritating, etc. I'll bite your fucking head off in the early morning. My mind doesn't start waking up until after about 2pm, and no real thinking gets done before 6. My golden time is after about 10pm until I retire in the wee hours. It doesn't matter how many hours of sleep I get; if I awake too early, I'm sluggish and lethargic all day. On the other hand, I only need 7-8 hours of sleep to feel great as long as I can get up at after 10am. So, I'm scared of all these things associated with early mornings. I'm weird, if you haven't already noticed.
The traditional wisdom of my childhood always dictated that I was "lazy" because of this and that I should be broken and molded into an 8-5 schedule. It never worked. My grades in school were always worse during early morning periods. Only in my post-secondary education was I able to break this cycle by always choosing classes that started in the afternoon or evening. Anyway, recent research has now proven that people's propensity for morning or night is regulated by our circadian ryhthm or "chronotype" which differs for each individual by as much as 8 hours. There's even research that suggests variations are determined by a single gene, so all this may soon be able to be quantified, and with the advent of gene therapy, even altered. I can't even imagine what being a "morning person" feels like. Perhaps someday I will. So, this is exciting news, not only for retribution purposes, but in the sense that it might de-thaw the rigid rules of the American workplace. Whenever possible, why not have employees work when they are most productive? Makes sense to me. I hope this is the case, since my proclivity for night has been the biggest obstacle for me as I've tried to thrive in an organizational setting. So far, I've managed to find flexible employers that are a bit more forward thinking, and would rather have me doing better work than going to get coffee with co-workers first thing in the morning. It's an issue though from time to time that I still have to defend and contend with. Eventually I see myself being self-employed probably when I get fed up.
I like the flavor of your dream. Though I've been known to interpret dreams quite accurately, I'm not going to touch this one. Blyss is indeed a sweetheart, and I love her, even though she does sleep too much for her own good. 
And yeah, Sean Combs == Puff Daddy, who is quite possibly my polar opposite. And I thought minuet was a type of rice; this big white boy don't dance!
Have a good day, I'm off to finish learning about "electrical safety in an R & D setting".
Lots of topics to discuss.
The aerobed I have is just a regular old camping sized one, but now that I see they have these raised pillowtop jobs, I gots to have me one!
As far as early mornings, every cell in my being revolts at the idea. I feel nauseous, headache prone, dizzy, sometimes I vomit a little, I'm physically clumsy, my memory becomes poor, my thought process is fragmented, I put the milk in the cupboard and the grape-nuts in the fridge, sound and noises become exaggerated and irritating, etc. I'll bite your fucking head off in the early morning. My mind doesn't start waking up until after about 2pm, and no real thinking gets done before 6. My golden time is after about 10pm until I retire in the wee hours. It doesn't matter how many hours of sleep I get; if I awake too early, I'm sluggish and lethargic all day. On the other hand, I only need 7-8 hours of sleep to feel great as long as I can get up at after 10am. So, I'm scared of all these things associated with early mornings. I'm weird, if you haven't already noticed.
The traditional wisdom of my childhood always dictated that I was "lazy" because of this and that I should be broken and molded into an 8-5 schedule. It never worked. My grades in school were always worse during early morning periods. Only in my post-secondary education was I able to break this cycle by always choosing classes that started in the afternoon or evening. Anyway, recent research has now proven that people's propensity for morning or night is regulated by our circadian ryhthm or "chronotype" which differs for each individual by as much as 8 hours. There's even research that suggests variations are determined by a single gene, so all this may soon be able to be quantified, and with the advent of gene therapy, even altered. I can't even imagine what being a "morning person" feels like. Perhaps someday I will. So, this is exciting news, not only for retribution purposes, but in the sense that it might de-thaw the rigid rules of the American workplace. Whenever possible, why not have employees work when they are most productive? Makes sense to me. I hope this is the case, since my proclivity for night has been the biggest obstacle for me as I've tried to thrive in an organizational setting. So far, I've managed to find flexible employers that are a bit more forward thinking, and would rather have me doing better work than going to get coffee with co-workers first thing in the morning. It's an issue though from time to time that I still have to defend and contend with. Eventually I see myself being self-employed probably when I get fed up.
I like the flavor of your dream. Though I've been known to interpret dreams quite accurately, I'm not going to touch this one.
Blyss is indeed a sweetheart, and I love her, even though she does sleep too much for her own good.
And yeah, Sean Combs == Puff Daddy, who is quite possibly my polar opposite. And I thought minuet was a type of rice; this big white boy don't dance!
Have a good day, I'm off to finish learning about "electrical safety in an R & D setting".
cest_la_mae:
I don't mean to pry - but - any news on your crush ?
Did I mention I drove 180 miles in one evening to see the Pixies last weekend? Had a rickshaw take me from the car to the theatre, and our cyclist felt compelled to race the other rickshaws en route. The Pixies, of course, were worth every mile.
Saw Simon, King of the Witches last night, with the sound of rain outside and the lead actor,...
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72decibell:
yer new profile pic is...well...all kinds of hotness
soapdodger:
Thank you for stopping by and leaving such a nice comment. Drop in again anytime.
I omitted a detail from Saturday evening's Halloween party:
A rather cute woman dresssed as Hester Prynne wanted me to make out with her while I was wearing my beard. I declned, just because I couldn't take the psychological scarring that might ensue. Not the making-out-with-a-woman part, because I had done that once before (in the bathroom of a magician's club) but the making-out-with-a-woman-with-a-scarlet-A-whilst-dressed-in-beard part....
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A rather cute woman dresssed as Hester Prynne wanted me to make out with her while I was wearing my beard. I declned, just because I couldn't take the psychological scarring that might ensue. Not the making-out-with-a-woman part, because I had done that once before (in the bathroom of a magician's club) but the making-out-with-a-woman-with-a-scarlet-A-whilst-dressed-in-beard part....
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iscout:
At the risk of being lynched by your regular admirers here is a pretty SG boy to have a crush on.
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mtnbike99:
Thank You!
Oh, boy, my crush is getting bad. Three years have gone by, and periodically this person & I meet and exchange knowing glances, but never speak. Thursday I finally bit the bullet and wrote to him, and he wrote back right away. It was the first real exchange we ever had. He complimented me, so I wrote him back and thanked him. That was Thursday...
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surlyclown:
Fidel the bearded lady? I like it.
As to your crush I say fling him another, non-related email. If he doesn't respond, then perhaps you know it may not be in the cards. That will most likely suck, but not knowing can suck even worse.
I like it.
As to your crush I say fling him another, non-related email. If he doesn't respond, then perhaps you know it may not be in the cards. That will most likely suck, but not knowing can suck even worse.
iscout:
Three year crush?
Way past its expiration date.
Clean the fridge. Move on.
Way past its expiration date.
Clean the fridge. Move on.
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tryphyna:
BEASTIE BOYS!
reacher:
Sheesh, that video was the stuff of nightmares! 
Radiohead has a song - Fitter Happier - that to me totally epitomizes that 1950's emotional dichotomy. The sterile surface and dark underbelly trying hard to coexist, but failing miserably.
Bring on the 60's man!
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Radiohead has a song - Fitter Happier - that to me totally epitomizes that 1950's emotional dichotomy. The sterile surface and dark underbelly trying hard to coexist, but failing miserably.
Bring on the 60's man!
[Edited on Oct 23, 2004 11:15AM]
Last night a friend and I went to this gentleman's art opening downtown.
The art was illustrative, with disturbing post-apocalyptic themes. I only really found two of the paintings to my liking, both featuring a cute little spaceship-pod design. They were the only paintings I could envision myself wanting to stare at for more than a few minutes, which, in my opinion, is a prerequisite...
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The art was illustrative, with disturbing post-apocalyptic themes. I only really found two of the paintings to my liking, both featuring a cute little spaceship-pod design. They were the only paintings I could envision myself wanting to stare at for more than a few minutes, which, in my opinion, is a prerequisite...
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reacher:
Thank-you for sharing your eleoquence and wisdom, always. I know what you mean about the joy in being positively surprised by someone. It happens so rarely to me I think I've forgotten what it feels like. I have pretty high expectations of myself and others, so it's rare when someone I meet exceeds those. I don't really look for it anymore.
``Hyper-analytic'' probably wasn't the best choice of words. ``Hyper-aware'' was more what I meant. The opposite of oblivious, as most people tend to be towards detail. I'm much the same way and I don't consider this mischievous or cruel at all. Our diversity as a race lends itself to humor I think. People need to relax and laugh at themselves more often. I laugh at myself all the time.
If you find the world continuously alienating, it might be a signal that you are evolving or undergoing a metamorphosis, and this is a good thing. I've felt the same way for a long time, as discussed many times in past journal entries. Learning to live with this, to make it through to the other side, is my current challenge, since it's not possible to return what I have learned and what I now know.
Time for some coffee & bailey's before I drift off.
``Hyper-analytic'' probably wasn't the best choice of words. ``Hyper-aware'' was more what I meant. The opposite of oblivious, as most people tend to be towards detail. I'm much the same way and I don't consider this mischievous or cruel at all. Our diversity as a race lends itself to humor I think. People need to relax and laugh at themselves more often. I laugh at myself all the time.
If you find the world continuously alienating, it might be a signal that you are evolving or undergoing a metamorphosis, and this is a good thing. I've felt the same way for a long time, as discussed many times in past journal entries. Learning to live with this, to make it through to the other side, is my current challenge, since it's not possible to return what I have learned and what I now know.
Time for some coffee & bailey's before I drift off.
filmnoir1:
Hi! Well, yes, I did like CITIZEN KANE THAT much. but just getting the hang of typing into the journals.
I'mnot certain that this is even the right way to get back to new friends on the list, but here it is.
Welles was really one fine director(my fave being TOUCH OF EVIL) and it's saddening to see his stuff listed as old film now - worse (on one list) before they "made real films"> Brr.
Thanx muchly for poiinting out my error - see you in the funny papers as time goes on!
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I'mnot certain that this is even the right way to get back to new friends on the list, but here it is.
Welles was really one fine director(my fave being TOUCH OF EVIL) and it's saddening to see his stuff listed as old film now - worse (on one list) before they "made real films"> Brr.
Thanx muchly for poiinting out my error - see you in the funny papers as time goes on!
[Edited on Oct 21, 2004 2:59AM]
I just dropped all this money on this camera, which I couldn't afford at all. It arrived yesterday, and I returned it after realizing it didn't even come with a memory card! Although Canon claims the card is "optional," without it, the camera is completely useless. $1600 and I can't even get one lousy little memory card from them?!? What a bunch of heels! Fuck...
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hack:
Hi,
Camera =
Your cool coffin inspired me, but the results were not good.
Camera =
Your cool coffin inspired me, but the results were not good.
cest_la_mae:
The Bar Has Been Raised...
Google asked if I meant sailormoon...
Result of my real name search.
[Edited on Oct 17, 2004 12:53PM]
Google asked if I meant sailormoon...
Result of my real name search.
[Edited on Oct 17, 2004 12:53PM]
I thought you were writing about me. I am so selfish.