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Sunday Jul 11, 2004

Jul 11, 2004
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The doomed one-month relationship has come to an end, just like I thought. Causes me to question why I keep engaging in them. In this case, the Scottish accent went a long way...

Seemed as though humans werent getting any closer to impressing you.
Seemed as though you self-prophesized that. But this last onewhew.
I guess it could best be described that they never ceased to amaze you, in an un-amazing way. Suffice to say your were eternally unimpressed and rarely, if ever, pleasantly surprised. And you kept doing it why? Hoping to find one that would break through,
court you like in some 19th century novel? No, no, no. Wasnt gonna happen. But you never gave up hope or ceased to give chances; it was the ones that werent asking for them that forced you to question why you were wasting your time.

Wasnt as though you werent flawed: just not in the same way. Your flaws were your own, just like others owned theirs. It was whether or not you could accept the flaws of others that you had to understand. And right now, you couldnt be bothered. All that energy for something you knew was doomed to fail, anyway. It was useless and misdirected. There were better things you could do with your time.
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x9:
Hey, I saw your comment in my journal... thanks for the condolences. I tried to email you through the "contact" form on this page but it came back undeliverable.
Jul 11, 2004
artpie:
sorry little sister... not much consolation I can offer ya on this one... being on the receiving end of the kinda thing yer talking about sent me into the realm of self imposed singlehood for about eight years (Gasp! eeek )... a couple thing I did learn during that time was the capacity to have real unconditional love for all the people in my life ( you know... not feeling like I had to wait for a certain someone to share that with).... & I really started to value every moment that I spent with those people... the result seems to be that I feel alot less alone in my heart...

by the by... misdirected, maybe.... useless, doubtful... the trick is to remember what leaves you feel ing wounded... "Doctor, it hurts when I do this."
"The don't do that."

love to ya Chica
Jul 11, 2004

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